I got sober over a year ago. What god blessed me with is morals, honesty and a conscious. When I was out, I hurt people and I enjoyed it. It was something, I just had to do so you knew how big my rep was. I was a caged animal and I wasn't even in cell anymore in my head at least. Any challenge I met with violence. I prayed most nights not to wake up. I happened to have a reminder this evening. Tonight I picked up some food and sat at the bar. Instead of salivating over sharp knives, semi automatics, a broken thumb and what I would do to certain fox news anchors.
First, I saw my old friend jack. Before we reminisced I told him that, I'm allowed back in my mothers house. And am home for the holidays especially thanksgiving. I can hold a job instead of amassing monstrous amounts of credit card debt and fraudulent charges. And my family tells me they love me. Well he told me remember the good times, like trying to get hook up with someones girlfriend at a party. while he was passed out. Saying anything that was needed to close the deal. It just happened that night. I was bamboozled Also I had the privilege of running into some *****-***** who had the gull to tell me. You have the haircut of a ****. Her words exactly. So instead of keying some kind four letter feminine word into her car. I fell down into the street divider and wouldn't get up till some acquaintances went out there and asked me if I was alright. "That of course, was all I most likely needed growing up" said so many counselors who loved to point out the fact that, well Michael you grew up in a broken home with a father who took his life right around the corner from you when you were just ten years old. The prime growing years of any young lad.
Then I spoke to an old college friend after that a noble of sorts C. Royal. We spoke of past-times of unprotected *** with a so called girlfriends. All of these women of course who I had cheated on and possibly fathered many children. Now sober I'm following leads to see if they exist and planning to set up college funds. If the maternal parent doesn't want me int there life. Then later in life being the genius that I was cashing in so may bonds to celebrate my future sober life I began spending over 1500 at the tables. OF course when I was banded from narcotics and ****** at the hotel room. Whats the point of saving over 1200 in winnings. Like any good addict I let it ride on black.
I just kept on running into old friends. It was a hell of a night. I then saw a french man of sorts and spoke to him last Mr. Marnier. I told him for now at least I don't regurgitate Thanksgiving dinners in front of friends families. And my friends speak to me now. After that I picked up the food and said goodbye.
I feel like life is based on truth. its like they say those who win the war write the history.