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Nov 2015
I'm not quite sure if I'm drowning
In my own drunken state
Or in these emotions that I'm bleeding out
Simply because you're not here with me.
I'm not quite sure if I love you
Because I just can't have you
Or if I love you, in all honesty,
Because there is no one as **** beautiful as you.
I think it is the latter for
The way your soul shines from your eyes
And speaks from that shy smile,
There is nothing that can compete with you.
However, if it were the first,
Why is it that I may never have you?
It's just the way of the universe,
The way the Earth loves its Sun
Or how the moon loves its Earth,
Always around but never to touch.
I'm not sure how I can continue to hold it in
Or how I have for so long,
But even less do I know how to express this
For I'm not sure if you feel the same
Or like me at all
Or if you feel the same way and we're
Running in circles, after another,
Coughing up each other's dust.
I'm not sure why I feel like crying
When all I did was see you in the distance
And hear your name come from the mouths
Of people we both know, but do not know of us.
I'm not sure what us even is,
If I even have a right to use that word for us,
Us,
It sounds so alien
And as I say it, I question its existence.
I'm not sure of anything anymore,
Except that now the tears are brimming
And I replaced this liquor with some coffee
As I wait the night out,
Hoping for closure I must accept I'll never have.
I suppose I am most unsure of
How someone can fall in love with another
So effortlessly, like breathing,
But drown in their own tears
As that love is really poison:
Sweet, sweet poison
Settling deep down in my lungs.
L Marie
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L Marie  New Jersey
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