I'm not quite sure if I'm drowning In my own drunken state Or in these emotions that I'm bleeding out Simply because you're not here with me. I'm not quite sure if I love you Because I just can't have you Or if I love you, in all honesty, Because there is no one as **** beautiful as you. I think it is the latter for The way your soul shines from your eyes And speaks from that shy smile, There is nothing that can compete with you. However, if it were the first, Why is it that I may never have you? It's just the way of the universe, The way the Earth loves its Sun Or how the moon loves its Earth, Always around but never to touch. I'm not sure how I can continue to hold it in Or how I have for so long, But even less do I know how to express this For I'm not sure if you feel the same Or like me at all Or if you feel the same way and we're Running in circles, after another, Coughing up each other's dust. I'm not sure why I feel like crying When all I did was see you in the distance And hear your name come from the mouths Of people we both know, but do not know of us. I'm not sure what us even is, If I even have a right to use that word for us, Us, It sounds so alien And as I say it, I question its existence. I'm not sure of anything anymore, Except that now the tears are brimming And I replaced this liquor with some coffee As I wait the night out, Hoping for closure I must accept I'll never have. I suppose I am most unsure of How someone can fall in love with another So effortlessly, like breathing, But drown in their own tears As that love is really poison: Sweet, sweet poison Settling deep down in my lungs.