This is what I remember: the rasp of your callouses against my hips, and the way your eyelashes would settle like snowflakes on my cheekbones if you brought your face close enough. This is what I remember: the whir of the air conditioner struggling against the afternoon heat. Too short shorts. Vinyl diner seats sticking to my thighs, pulling uncomfortably at the skin. Blueberry cobbler and coffee left too long in the ***. I don't know if it was me or you or me with you- the way I would bruise pretty and quick beneath your fingertips, like a summer peach just shy of overripe. This is what I remember: filling myself with you and dime-book poetry, both worn by time and the carelessness of others. My wet hair on your pillowcase. Your eyes. Your eyes. Your eyes; irreverent and devoted. There was religion in you- divine words written in the spaces between your ribs. You took whiskey like holy communion. And me too. Your bedroom faced the East. Mornings were molasses and sugarcane and dragging feet. This is what I remember: ruined shoes and over-stretched T-shirts. The smell of lake water. Mud between my toes. Changing leaves floating down around me. Cold doesn't come here like other places. Snow gathers on trees and in hair and melts easy. This is what I remember: warming my hands in your coat pockets, then with cups of tea- Earl Grey brewed so strong it made my head ache. I am more used to night terrors than I ever was to you. This is what I remember: feeling. The flu in September, then again in December. You felt more like a fever dream than anything else- blurry; fantastical; difficult to recall. You left me sixteen voice mails; sixteen unheard messages; sixteen times I pressed nine to delete. This is what I remember: me, stronger.