Thirty years together and "a slow grind" now holds a very different meaning.
That never left
One of those evenings...
He says he's broken
I say he's beautiful
Inspired by another's words
They glided easily into my life those boys
just like the water they swam in
Sinewy V-shaped bodies
So unaware of the ripples they created in my life
When the end is near all I'll want is you
You know where to spread my burnt bones
I took you there once just to make sure
Let me go at sunrise so my ashes
will have all day to drift out to meet the setting sun
I am released all debts paid in full
Eighteen 'n pregnant in a borrowed white dress,
saying "I do"
screaming "I don't" in my head
Jesus watched as I lied
'Till death do us part....
Playing house with food stamps and hand me downs
The sound track of my life backlit by lies
and hollow I love you's
Love does not thrive in captivity
It made me hurtful with your soul
and careless with my body
Mistakes were made that a sweet baby boy paid for
Too young to always know the right thing to do
and many times too selfish to care,
He says there's forgiveness in his heart
But I see none in his eyes
What I see is my guilt reflected back at me
for I know stolen innocence
cannot be forgiven
Fast forward, another son born
This is not a "do over" child
So wanted, so loved by all
half love and half jealousy
This cannot be fixed
Mistakes were made ...
Come let's strike the match
watch it burn..
not too much left to generate heat
I can't live on what was
you shouldn't hope for what will never be
Perpetual ambivalence....no cure
I'll hold your hand as we walk thru
Don't be afraid we'll come out ok
just not together..
Thanks to a kind soul for the title.