A mind so full, a heart so cold. So bitter, self hatred starting to unfold. Blank stare in my eyes, lost in a daze. My life is like a nightmare, I can't seem to erase. This pain is here to stay, Not even the rain can wash it away. No not this time, I've lost my self this time. Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind. My conscience screaming, My head pounding. Louder, louder, I can hear it, insanity surrounding. My veins ticking, My Hearts beating so fast, Will I survive this, how much longer will this last? This pain is here to stay, Not even the rain can wash it away. No not this time, I've lost my self this time. Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind. I cant get away, there's no escaping it. I have to fight it, I wont give in. I won't let my ****** up conscience win.