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Little do you know how I'm breaking while you fall asleep,
Little do you know I'm still haunted by the memories,
Little do you know I'm trying to pick myself up, piece by piece
Little do you know I need a little more time
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the feel that you might change your mind.
I'm ready to forgive you but, forgetting is a harder fight.
Little do you know I need a little more time
As I lay in my bed
in this dark room
the silence is strident
and so is my mind.
My thoughts immediately go to
you
every moment of the day
until
my eyes grow heavy
and my body is at peace
but still
you're there
in the back of my mind.
A mind so full, a heart so cold.
So bitter, self hatred starting to unfold.
Blank stare in my eyes, lost in a daze.
My life is like a nightmare, I can't seem to erase.
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
My conscience screaming, My head pounding.
Louder, louder, I can hear it, insanity surrounding.
My veins ticking, My Hearts beating so fast,
Will I survive this, how much longer will this last?
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
I cant get away,
there's no escaping it.
I have to fight it,
I wont give in.
I won't let my ****** up conscience win.

— The End —