What's it like to be in love when plagued with a mind like mine?
When waking up each day is like walking into fire
And each breath I breathe is such a struggle?
It's difficult, that's for sure, when you're heart knows the truth
But your brain tells you these awful things.
"He doesn't really love you, ya know,
He's just using you to pass the time, the lonely nights"
No, no, no, that's simply not true! He loves me, he tells me all the time
Maybe… maybe he's just telling me what I want to hear,
Maybe… he means none of the words he says…
No! He means it all, every "I love you", everything.
Don't listen to the little voice that hides inside your head!
It's a lying coward who only wants to hurt you.
But it's not that easy! Trying to ignore that voice.
The insecurities arise no matter what,
And ruin the happiness I've finally found.
Why can't I love another and be loved back
Without these thoughts that go through my head?
Why can't I continue feeling the way I do when I talk to him?
When I hear him, when I look at him, when I see him.
..My god, he is perfect, he makes me happy, so ******* happy..
So, please, just leave my mind alone, please just let my heart be right…
But then it passes, those thoughts and insecurities
But for how long will they be gone? For good this time?
I love him, I don't doubt his love for me
He's the sun and the stars within my skies,
The colours that wash shades of grey from my life
And to lose another, to lose him, because of my illness,
My god, I could not handle the pain that would come
Please, mind, clear yourself, leave me be, let me be happy
Let me love this man, for he completes me
And he feels oh-so right... don't cause me to lose him, too.