what i say
i mean with the kindest of hearts
my love
is often mistaken for hate
because sometimes my visions spill out of my mouth when i see the life you’re trying to create
just take
a look
but don’t look with your eyes
your eyes can’t see when your mind starts to fly
what i say
i say with an authority i shouldn’t have
inhibition delivering me to my very well deserved state
teenage dream
but the dreams i have are controlled chaos
nightmares that twist my rib cage towards the so desired truth
what i say
is the result of you trying to bleach me
teach me the truth that was passed down to greet me
wash me of my secret maturity
because its rude to stand up for what i believe in
if what i believe in
is on the opposite end of a person over five years older than me
what i say
is more than an everyday opinion
i have washed that word from my vocabulary
and protested it to no end
what i say
is not the result of the lack of thinking
it’s the result of admitting that the lack of thinking created this mess that we call
freedom of speech
and i know a little more of what it’s like
to become an object of a proven point
when your point has been proven by others
and you have to sharpen the edges for it to be seen as the same words
and i don’t know every scripture
but i know that God is love
so why are those three words seen differently on Sunday morning out of a preachers mouth?
and i’m no republican (sorry daddy) but i know my God given rights
my country given rights
and my self given rights
but i no longer see that integrity in the cops we throw outside
and i dare say
i am afraid of the american flag
because the fabric is being held against our mouths
silencing us by giving us freedom
but if i brought these things up to you
you wouldn’t understand
because you take part in the war
and don’t feel the land and it’s plans
70% of the people i know could tell me i’m wise
but when the time comes to talk i gotta sit on the sidelines
and watch people potentially ruin their lives
because i’m 13
all i have to worry about are friendships
and lies
and homework
and guys
and i’m not downplaying these things
i’m just saying
a lot of adults have signed me up for wars
and told me i’m not ready for the training
but hey
what do i know
i’m only 13
but just because a cut is small
doesn’t mean it won’t bleed
and experience means nothing without integrity
which is better than anything you could ever teach
so when i speak
someone is bound to listen to me
and to that one random person
who i’ll probably never meet
thank you
for being a part of the solution
despite the fact
that we’re only 13
and in case you were wondering about the other 30
in the percentage above
**
it’s my family**