I wanted to love you
I wanted you in my arms every night
I wanted you when things got tough
I wanted you even when it wasn't right.

Now I lay here
Alone in my bed
After you've gone
Sad thoughts racing through my head.

I let you in
I let you be there for me.
I trusted you
And you betrayed me.

Now my tears fall on my pillow
Every night I lay on my bed
Cuddle with your sweater
That you left for me
And I think of the first time I saw you
Our first date.
I think of the way you used to stare at me
How your eyes lit up and your smile grew the moment you got out of your car.
The first time I made you dinner
And how you loved it so much you got thirds.
The late nights we spent cuddling on the couch watching Lord of the rings.
And every single time we were intimate.
How you could make me shake.
How you made me feel like I wasn't alone.
I think of how much I love you
Until I fall asleep with tears running down my cheeks.

I never want to stop loving you.
But I have to.
We can never be together
Ever again.