I wake up around 3 A.M. my body starts to quake i try to stay quiet but theres only so much i can take. my little brothers asleep he shouldnt see me this way. i work my way to my room grab the bottle , there i stay. close the door until they start to taper away. when did it get this bad i really have no-one but wish someone would see that lately im not me.  ive been these thoughts that only with death ill be free. i shutter at the thought that i would even think of leaving my brother. Id only take my pain and give it to the people i love but keep at bay.Sometimes i think of asking but i dont know what to say.the pill settles and my mind starts to stray, the warm feelings back now everything is going to be okay.