I am a little boy screaming at the world to love me
To hug me
To accept me
When i cant find a way to accept myself
I hide from the world
and from myself
Buried in emotions i cant comprehend
When so many flood my mind and blur my vision and all i need is escape
A solitary moment i can hold in time to just make everything stop
To stop making lists in my mind about whats wrong with me, and whats wrong with the world
Why i can never forget, even for a secondx how much better everyone is than me
A toxic reaction spews forth from my thoughts slicing the character of others, pointing out their failures and stupidity so im not alone with my own inadequacies
Ive been told hate is a powerful word, but ive abused it to the point that all i ever need is another fix fro my broken mind. I hate you for what youve got, i hate the world for what its not, and i hate myself more then i could ever explain or hope to understand. There is a volcano inside me, fiery hot rage ready to spew all over innocent bystanders, exposing my self loathing with incendiary wit derived from knowing i aint ****