Jun 2015
What is forgiveness?
Is forgiveness some absolute
Like once you've given it
That's it?
I don't think that it is.
I think it's a constant
choice and battle against emotion.
Or maybe I just haven't truly forgiven yet
Is forgiveness the same as letting go?
I don't know
I just know that I'm not very good at that
Especially if it involves upset
Maybe it's not a matter of forgiveness but of forgetting
Maybe that would make it easy.
But it seems I'm cursed with a long and detailed memory
But memories fade surely?
Time heals and all
Yet I'm afraid
Cause attach an emotion to them
And when you feel that emotion again
They all come flying back up to the surface
Why is that?
It makes me feel like I've never truly let anything go
Or maybe when I'm in a compromised state
It just becomes more of a weight
And by God it weighs heavy!
So I wonder what is forgiveness to me?
*Forgiveness is a way to be free
Is forgiveness some absolute
Like once you've given it
That's it?
I don't think that it is.
I think it's a constant
choice and battle against emotion.
Or maybe I just haven't truly forgiven yet
Is forgiveness the same as letting go?
I don't know
I just know that I'm not very good at that
Especially if it involves upset
Maybe it's not a matter of forgiveness but of forgetting
Maybe that would make it easy.
But it seems I'm cursed with a long and detailed memory
But memories fade surely?
Time heals and all
Yet I'm afraid
Cause attach an emotion to them
And when you feel that emotion again
They all come flying back up to the surface
Why is that?
It makes me feel like I've never truly let anything go
Or maybe when I'm in a compromised state
It just becomes more of a weight
And by God it weighs heavy!
So I wonder what is forgiveness to me?
*Forgiveness is a way to be free
