I was told that you know exactly when love arrives,
because when it does,
your stomach turns into
the land of thousand butterflies.
I was told that when love arrives
it hits you so hard that
breathing becomes the hardest part,
and your whole body gets numb
by the thought of her in your arms

My stomach was home to no butterfly,
breathing was never hard
or my body numb
yet, I gave it all
because that day
when love arrived
and I saw you for the first time,
something penetrated my chest
and since then
the only feeling I’ve had
was the constant fear
of remaining breathless

I so wanted to be good for you
that I turned blind
and did not see
I was losing myself
in this hell
trying to be
a decent human being
striving to save a love that
perhaps has always been wrong