Yesterday I said

It doesn't feel like I'm living any more.
Days are just obstacles that I have to get through.
I don't even like sleeping any more. I'm afraid that I'll see him in my dreams.
I no longer eat.
I don't even feel hungry.
I eat a couple bites of school lunch and none of breakfast.
I'm not eating at home.
I've already lost a lot of weight.
The pain doesn't feel emotional any more, my emotions are dormant.
The pain is physical now.
It feels like I'm walking through syrup constantly.
When I lay down I cry even if I'm not thinking of him.
And right now the only thing I feel is confusion.

*But Today
I'm so much stronger.
I'm not crying
No regrets
This pain
Is fading from my chest
I'm not dull
No longer bland
I'm on my own
I don't need a man
Goodbye