Why am I bitter? All the silence trapped in my brain “I’m not in the mood” Somehow, I always seem not to be Why did you leave? With the walls I painted teal for you The I love you’s were never heard And the joy, was never to be felt Did it ever mean something to you? Or was it just a dream, hallucinations A vivid memory
Being held by you Trapped in your arms As warm as a blanket Was all I ever longed for Like a memories of me as a child Of never belonging to a playground Never scraping my knee But always, my heart
The distance between us It’s always haunting me Chasing me down Pinning my fingers to the map To the line of oceans Deserts Continents The walls I have painted for you Are now, pebble grey Without you Every shade of grey is conquering Everything around me turned to grey Even the books, even the sky.