It’s so hard.
Knowing that something will always be there,
And knowing that that’s the way things should be.
Suddenly they’re not.
It’s a completely foreign idea.
Sometimes you think that
“Yes! I can do this,
I’m in control of the situation” and
As soon as you start regaining your confidence
And faith in the world,
You are shattered again.
  All of this
Is by your own doing as well.
You poor, poor soul.