One so positively caring and kind Another so dark and irritable at mind But why am I so angry towards every being When the other part of me pushes to be please I dedicated my time and studies to helping others End ties with all around me including my dear lover Found a thick rope abandoned in a box inside my shed All the unhappiness started rushing into my head That's all I remembered before I awoke in my bed I wish I could care again, but I only see red.