Peek outside the window
Hide behind the door
No desire whatsoever,
to see what is in store
Close your eyes tight
Pray it stays locked
Take off your mask
hyperventilate-
Breathe it in,
Firm as stone.
Settled now, to try the door.
Just a little further,
But oh so very far.
Dear God, come on.
it's just the yard.
But the fear is overwhelming,
It dances in ur head.
So you hide under your covers
Tucked safe inside your bed
But never safe-
From the thoughts within your head.
The pinball reverberations-
Painfully loud.
The wind howls a tune.
The tree thumps a bass.
Your headache slowly fades,
As the rain kerplunks a gasp.
Cracking open long closed doors
It tears you far as sunder
the light pours in
It blinds you so
Stings pulsing through the sky
Yet your eyes remain unmoving,
Searching the outside
Their voices only pebbles now.
Softened by the wood nearby.
Their yells and insults fall, before they can even fly.
The wind is your turmoil.
The weather your symphony
Ur own perfectly destructive,
Rythmic, cacophony.
Etch your words into their hearts
Scream it through the glass
Let them know it is so very far,
From your own last gasp.
Watch them drown in your sound
-Loosing theirself instead.
Cry and cry as it pours down,
Blurred insignificance in ur head.
Colors drain with raindrops.
But still the sound remains
Their eyes wide.
Pant and shiver slight.
Cower on the ground
Hiding from the dread.
Dread of humiliation
From hiding in their bed
To know that on the inside,
They lost to you instead.
Complete mortification-
Snickers in the halls.
Time slipping from your grasp.
clutch the covers tight.
now knuckles white.
Cry, and cry.
And pray, and pray-
For just a longer night.
A slight rap on your front door
Resonates through the hall.
you hold your breath and wait still-
But yet the clock ticks on.
You trudge your feet of steel with will,
And peek out the window pane.
To see your neighbor soaked, and cold.
-Wondering if your ok.
if only