They agreed they weren't looking for love
He was new here and she is finally single
Each at a point in their life
Where they just want to have fun and mingle.

Conversations grew deeper and days passed fast
He started to hold her hand
Nothing was established at this time
But she started to see him as more than a friend.

Intimacy grew between them quick
They formed a bond and she held on to him tight
He could see that her feelings were strong for him so he said to her
"You know we're just friends right"?

Her heart was crushed and she felt so used
But she held back those lonesome tears
They drifted apart from one another after that
But reconnected again after several years.

Warm welcomes and friendly smiles
He said he'd like to catch up more soon
She agreed and he was eager to suggest
The following day around noon

Hours were spent once again together
And they caught up on old and new
She would laugh and he would smile
He said "Wow, do you know that I've missed you"?

Intimacy between them once again arose
They loved each other under the sheets all night
Until one day she could sense he wanted more
So she said "You know we're just friends, right"?

Everybody seems to know what they want from me
and yet I don't know what I want for myself
People expect me to be able to deal with anything
They throw their problems upon my shelf.
I'm expected to forgive and let go
Get up and move forward
Endure the worst from others
And always have a helping hand to offer.
I think I just want to be left alone
I have nothing left to give to anyone
No compassion left in this body of mine
I don't want to be asked for a dime or an opinion.

I write poetry when I'm feeling broken
I listen to piano music when I fall asleep
I'm a great listener and I love to laugh,
My loyalty and love runs deep.
My daughter is my world and my light
I worry about her getting older and having resentment towards me
So every move that I make I think three times over
My wish every morning is to see her happy.
I like long walks underneath the stars
I hate the beach and love the rain
My favorite studies are science and literature
I prefer coffee over champagne.
I enjoy all types of movies and music
I like to be diversified
My past is a heavy weight on my shoulders
My memory nightmares often wake me in a fright.
I'm a deep thinker and a hard worker
I hold grudges and at the same time forgive
I love romance novels and hot weather
I believe that every breath taken is a gift.
I'm religious but my faith is unique
I'm Catholic but it's not so traditional
I make wishes instead of prayers
I'm also quite political.

He said "Yea, you know you're right.
You cross my mind and I think of you
While I'm at work and when I'm on the road
And sometimes I dream of you too.

But you really need to relax with all of these poems you write of me
Get a grip, it wasn't that serious
You've even said it was mostly a physical attraction
And I honestly think you've become a little delirious.

You change your mind so much it's unbearable
You write about me every day
I only come on here to make sure you haven't completely lost it
And of course to see what you think of me today.

It really is flattering, you know
To read how torn apart you are from me
And how you feel like you can't move on sometimes
Because I really didn't do much of anything.

You want an apology and a confession
But you won't get it and that's what kills you
You want a dude to keep running back
Only because that's what you're used to.

But I have way too much pride for that ****
And you already know that I've moved on!
I moved on before we ended our little affair
And that's why I haven't called since you've been gone.

You don't feel ****, *****. Let's be honest
Well at least, I know it's not me you're feeling
Stop wasting your time with all of these sad rhymes
It's irritating that I read them and feel like I owe you my pitty".

You haven't said one word to me
But truth is, you don't need to
I know I'm not the only one between us that's suffering
If you're reading this, then I know that's true.

I know I'm not the only one between us
That wonders what the other is up to
And when life get hard and nights get lonely
I know I'm not the only one who wishes I was with you.

I can't be the last one standing at the end of all this
Who is the only one feeling this pain
And if by chance you're reading this tonight
Well then now you know I feel the same.

I know you think you're doing me a favor
By staying away and never calling
I know you think I hate you and I'm angry
But truthfully, I just wish I could hear you say you're sorry.

I know you go about your days the same
And that I often cross your mind
The only reason why I know that's so true
Is because I can feel you thinking of me when your on mine.

It's crazy, I know. It sounds insane
But I know I just can't be the only one
I know I play it off like I'm fine every day
But really, I know neither one of us have moved on.

**** it, if you weren't so stupid
I could have stayed right there with you
I would be with you right now, wrapped in your arms
Instead of writing these poems like I always do.

I slipped and you caught me.
You're holding on to me so tight.
You have both of my hands in yours.
Im hanging off the edge of a cliff and I'm trusting you to pull me up.

But you don't.

You tied rope around my wrists as I stared into your eyes but I saw nobody there in you.
My wrists are burning and I'm too scared to move for if I do I might fall into an abyss.

So I stay. I have no choice.
You left for days. You would come back to check on me. To make sure I was still alive.

As long as I'm breathing, I'm yours.

Weeks went by and I realized I'd rather die than be yours.

So I let go.

You say "I love you"
Because that's what my necklace says
And you just read it to me.

You say "I love you"
When you're drunk with your arms around me
And we wander the streets at night.

You say "I love you"
With laughter in your voice
When I make you laugh until it hurts.

You say "I love you"
When you confess your secrets to me
And I am here to listen and help you through what you're feeling.

Why do you do that to me?