i'm feeling too numb. i miss the adrenaline rush, i miss the laughter, i miss the feeling of automatically smiling to anything that's related to you. but i don't miss you. i'm just reminiscing and thinking that what if i never feel that again? what if i never find anyone to share those moments with? what if i'm just one of those people who's not meant for anyone else? am i overreacting? will the loneliness and over-thinking eat me up? i'm feeling numb inside and the despair is starting to show in my face. i don't have the energy to fake emotions, or meet anyone new. i'm afraid. i'm numb. i'm lost. i'm in need of happiness. i need to be go back to the way i was. it was temporary happiness but i'd wish to have it all over again. one of the best days of my life were with you and i don't know if i should thank you for them or hate you for not being the person i thought you were.

Why do you give people your all and watch them slowly leave you with nothing?* he asked.
Because i've been told that you give and you get but i don't believe that's the case anymore she replied.

She's misguided and she trusts easily
someone needs to make her feel worthy of herself
and remind her that she's beautiful too
someone has to make the despaired look on her face fade
bring back the warmth of her smile and make her eyes sparkle again
but at the same time someone needs to tell her that *the only person who can do that is her, she has to learn to lift herself up and believe that not everyone is the same

She's the girl that was spoiled and loved by her parents but when it came to needing someone to talk or a should to cry on they were never there.
Neither were her siblings or her so called friends.
So she's the girl that would cry alone in her bed hugging her teddy bear. She's the girl with a kind heart that was always being taken advantage of.
She never understood how people could have so much darkness in them.
She believed in being loyal to people.
She's the girl that kept drowning for people who wouldn't get in the **** water for her.

She was the girl with a kind heart that was always being taken advantage of.
She believed in being loyal to people.
She was the girl that kept drowning for people who wouldn't get in the water for her.

She never understood how people could have so much darkness in them.
She’d break on the inside everytime she would get hurt but wouldn’t show it.
Until one day she realized that not everyone has the same heart as her.

She woke up one day and thought to herself that she wouldn’t allow anything to break her again because she’s stronger now.
She used to be easily shaken by words like the wind shakes branches but her roots are now deeply set in the ground and nothing can shake her.

She used to be a star and now she is slowly becoming fire proof.
She used to wear her heart on her sleeve and now she puts her mind over those feels.
She was glass and now she’s concrete.

If you're ever on the riverside
where the sun beats your head
you would see the old man
selling hats of palm leaf
but you care not to notice him
having already smelled the sea
and too keen to cross the river
travel southward on the island
till the saline wind scalds your eyes
your skins itch to jump into the waves
yet the man with the palm leaf hats
would not cease to tell you
how burning would be the sun on the sands
and so badly you need to protect the head
by parting bucks that mean nothing to you
but a world to the mouths he feeds
and before you stamp on him a final no
she has one atop her hair
beneath which her eyes flutter like butterflies
her sun rouged cheeks untimely blush
and two born anew lovers
merrily head for the sea
having bought romance
for forty bucks.

If i'm a sunflower
You are my sun
Your warmth & light enlightens me
& Bestows energy to my soul
When you rise up
I always turn to see your face
When you come to me in the morning
I really start growing,my darling
When you come to me in the noon
Floating,tossing & dancing in front of you
When your rays kiss me
I bow down my head and shy
When your brightness hugs me
I happily move and bloom
When your light shades
By God my face fades
When you hide behind the clouds
My crying voice louds
When you become sad
I also feel so bad
When in the evening you show red light
Me turn pale,old & lose my sight
When you go away to home
My loneliness starts killing me
When you say good bye
I finally wither,fall & die

By shaffu ....