we are so different
different beliefs
different hopes
different dreams

but somehow
someway

things feel right
like a key in a lock
like a vow in a prayer

like a fish on a dock
like a lie in a swear

that is until
our differences
become too different

It's truly sad to only see
that all my friends are enemies

I've lost my morals
all I have is an empty soul

my mind has fallen
down a rabbit hole

hand intertwined in mine
he whispered a secret
and it tickled my neck

I closed my eyes and giggled
as he led me down the hallway
reopening them, I saw Him
He stared at me and then at our hands, his hand

He walked right by us and never smiled
and in that moment I knew
He would never feel guilt for what He did
for the pain He had put me through
for using me

But that was the first time I realized it didn't matter
because His eyes were full of hurt
at the sight of me holding a different hand

maybe He hadn't only used me
maybe He had felt a slight bit of love for me
and it felt amazing to know It wasn't all a lie
that I hadn't wasted a year of my life
that there was some truth in our old disgusting relationship

We walked past and He never spoke
and that was alright
because I finally felt closure
and now I had the opposite of a lie - truth
and held my hand at that moment
never letting go

the stars are yellow
the moon is yellow
the sun is yellow

my sheets are yellow
in it is my fellow
his eyes are mellow

he takes my hand
and I take his
and together
              we create lovely yellow

I convince myself
conforming my thoughts
changing my memories

lies

I tell others
relaying imagery
that has never been seen
by my own eyes

but I believe them to be true
the stories

insanity

my own lies
turn to fact in my mind
and i wonder
what is real anymore

confusion

my life is a lie
my mind is convoluted

but sometimes it is better that way

Maybe I will tell you
once my blood changes form
once my lungs have burned to dust
once I empty my mind

once I am no longer
                 myself

Then I will tell you
                  thank you
                             for stealing my innocence

I think I am too weird
for you and all your "friends"
laughing at me
           dancing on my own

I walk naked
while you follow society
clothed in the heat of bodies
as I fly through the sky

               soaring above my own
mind.                 I am different
You are not.
you are skinny
Congratulations
But I am fat
with experience
                with memories and passions and stories

and you are empty