Something is missing
since a long ago.
When I remembered
before me, I could not
see my mirror.

We do not say the word love
it is ice we dare not tread for fear of cracking

We say:
Care, cherish, treasure, admire

To say love would be jump into
The fullness of emotion that lies beneath the ice

Chances are draining and I am waiting
The line is stretching and I might give in
feed me or I might be fed by another
it is a gift you're tossing
a diamond you're losing
the best thing that is slipping

Slipping into the hands of another
Words you didn't say were said by another
Actions you didn't perform were done by another
Things you didn't notice were admired by another
It is slipping and the best thing might be leaving

The clock is ticking and you are losing
The other is waiting for the trophy
Its time for checking and you got nothing
You never remembered when you gave up the best thing

That best thing that ever happened to you is lost to the other.

I think of you
like it what i need
I think of you
even  though it seems toxic
I think of you
like my next breath

when will my mind turn logical?
when will i become free?
when will your memories let me go?

I think of you
because i have no choice
I think of you
because i can't seem to stop

Isn’t it funny,
The happiness we pretend to have
Is the very thing
Holding us back from living.