I'm trying I swear
I never wanted to the monster
I never wanted to cause fear

Its harder than it looks
Trying to keep a smile or a straight face
When you're seconds away from bursting into tears

I just want my family
I just want my friends

But I guess I'm too talented at ******* things up

I feel as though Im out
Im free
I can be who I want to be

Im no longer trapped in a place I used to call home

For home is where you're truely happy
Which for me is elsewhere

Drama
Chaos

Raised with it
Raised for it

I want to be kind
I want to have a sweet mind

But forever I will always be what my parents raised me to be

Dressing up isnt me
It makes me feel like an object

Yes, I like to look nice
Yes, I care about what I look like
But it's the constant worrying of not looking good enough that gets me

What to wear
What to say
What do I do with my hair
What do I do with my face

Green eyes
Blue eyes
Brown eyes
Hazel eyes
Yellow eyes
Turquoise eyes
Deep eyes
Dark eyes
Detailed eyes
Simple eyes
Light eyes

I dont know about you but they are all incredibly beautiful to me

Instead of focusing on someones appreance, just focus on their eyes because you'll be sure to fall in love with them forever

It may sound cheesy but its the truth
Things will get better in time I promise you

There will always be a rainbow after a storm, you just have to look hard enough

There will always be people willing to help, including myself

You are all so unique
You are all gorgeous

Just promise me this

That you wont end your life
Because of a bad day

I've cried more this week than I usually do in a year

Need to harden up