When I love you
I love you with everything I have
I love you with all my heart
With all of my body
I love you with my mind
I give every inch of myself to you
So be aware
That if this love is too strong
If this too much
If you cannot love with this same capacity
If you fail to make me happy
If you hurt me
It will turn love into hate
I will hate you with everything I have
I will hate you with all my heart
With all of my body
I will hate you with my mind
I will hate with every inch of myself
So be aware

I am ready to give myself
Are you?

When is too young
Are you ever too young to find love
You say that you live fast because it’s fun
Because it makes you feel alive
But maybe
Just maybe
You’re scared of all that you’ll have to face when you
slow down

so I noticed that we both drink coffee.
just like anyone, we both like ours a certain way.
i like mine sweeter, with just the aftertaste of coffee there.
caramel, sugar, creamer.
i think about when i’ll have my next cup, and the idea of it alone makes me happy.
i don’t care what time of day i have it, i almost always have a cup.
i make time for my coffee.
it might be safe to say i think you like your coffee black.
you might add just the smallest touch to soften its bitter taste, but never too much.
sometimes i think you just pour it and carry on, as though it’s nothing important at all.
as though all it is, is just some quick fix.
like you just want to get it over with.
we drink it in two different ways.
i drink it slowly.
i note every flavor in every sip, i enjoy it.
i note the warmth it brings me.
i like it all hours of the day.
you drink it quickly.
quicker than me, at least.
you don’t care if it burns your tongue, or perhaps you’re used to the pain.
you accept it.
you never let it last, you move on to something else soon after.
i lay in your bed, watching your eyes as they skim the screen in front of you.
your mind is somewhere else.
i savor the moments you look my way, if even for a second, and smile at me.
i wonder if you even notice them.
i feel your laugh vibrate my bones, making the hair on my arms stand on end.
do i make you feel at all?
i reflect on it every time i drink my coffee.
i think about it with each and every sip, taking my time.
something tells me that you don’t do the same.
after all, it's just coffee.
but i put my all into this coffee.
i think you like your coffee black.

I miss you more and more each night
Stay up thinking about our next encounter
But dare I say what bring me down is freight
That whatever this is will head downward
Just as quickly overnight
You will no longer shower
My darkness with your light
You may even just voucher
Elsewhere, like a kite

Despite fear having me devoured
Im convince it will be alright
By just being with you for an hour
I am filled with so much delight... I know this is right

You captured my attention with ease. I’m not sure what compelled me to you. Maybe it was you’re attraction to me when I overlooked you. Maybe it was the blue of your eyes that matched the sky on those cloudless days you knew I loved. Maybe it was the confidence you had to joke around in the cleverest of ways. Maybe your out-of-the-box intelligence  intrigued my constantly curious mind. Maybe it was your passion that always looked past the present and into the future. Maybe it was your smile that made me lose my breath and put a stop to my words...

...Whatever it was...

...The things that made my mind unclear
From the start
Those that drew me near
They are the same ones my heart
Warned me to fear

And just as things went astray
I knew my emotions imposed
As you began to fade
No concern was disclosed

However as I began to reach
Your voice went adrift
Although I may have impeached
You were the one to swiftly shift

I never understood the charade
That left you so composed
Was it a fun game you played
You believed that I had froze

Sheltered from the change
Thought it was handled with the best approach
Did you seek for us to estrange
Unable for the topic to be broached

What caused you to stall?
The point of acceptance?
Realization leaves you appalled
In the near distance

As I sat there and replayed
Your commitment to implement civility
Acting like you’re ahead of the game
Trust that you misplayed pathetically

A force you chose to be reckoned with
As you set me aside
You have become a frivolous myth
Which leaves you petrified as I stand purified

You’ll be wishing everything stayed the same
Your searches will be incomplete
As you sit and sulk, you’re one to blame
I’ve left you behind while you so desperately plead

The words that once made me sway
Are barren and trivial quite frankly
Those were the ones you use to get me to stay
Thank you for letting me leave abruptly

Breathless there you stand
Gawking at your unfortunate circumstance
This isn’t possibly what you had planned
As I advance and leave with no final glance...

...Whatever this was...

My heart warned me to fear
Those that drew me near,
They are the same ones
From the start,
The things that make my mind unclear

Maybe, in the beginning, that day
Those were all the things that made my mind clear
But when things went astray
They were the same ones my heart warned me were insincere
The things that drew me near
Will be the ones you use to keep me away
You began to fade
And when it was time for you to convey
I realized my affections were mislaid
And you left me to replay
The slightest change in your charade
Was it that I...
My mind realized to stay away