I am ever reaching for your light
To hold within my heart
Knowing it is all I'll ever need
To begin each day I start

You are my anchor in a storm
That which grounds me everyday
You guide me ever safely home
Whatever comes my way

Your light it never leaves my sight
I never leave from yours
With loving eyes you watch each step I take
As I go through life's doors

You looked at me and your eyes fell
I saw the pain eating you alive
What exactly drove you to this state
I know well and recognize

You live and breathe in your own hell
That never seems to end
You seek and chase the very thing
That has caused your life to bend

Each day anew, you tell yourself
I am finished, I am through
But it calls to you, "Come numb yourself
And I'll take care of you"

There was a time not long ago
Your self-esteem was set so high
Now here you stand, in front of me,
So broken down
You can't look me in the eye

How I wish that I could take away
This power it has over you
And help you mend your broken life
But that responsibility lies with you

Until you admit you are powerless
And see that this insanity, you can't stop on your own
You'll continue living in your own hell
And it burns hotter than anything
You've ever known

First your up and then your down
Emotions spinning high
Right on top of your game
Then it seems to pass you by

The world it is your oyster
A pearl inside it is your own
Someone shuts the floodgates down
And you can't find your home

No sense anything seems to make
That made sense yesterday
The prize you held above your head
Someone has taken it away

Don't give up and don't give in
The pearl is still your own
Hold on tight and ride this out
And know you're not alone

How can I just look at your picture
And not hold you every day
I want you more each time I look
But I can't look away

I tell myself to take it down from here
And not look at you anymore
But each time I start I stop
And I sit and look at you some more

My longing for the arms I see
Is different than before
I'd never felt them round me
Now I have and I want them even more

Sometimes I just sit here and do nothing
But want you and look into your eyes
Why do I do this to myself
I can't tell you why

Can this heart of mine ever be the same
As before it learned the truth
Can it continue now as it is
Alone without you

Now my heart cries out its need for you
Unknown may have been better
Nothing lost, nothing gained
No tear-stained letters

Thought it would be easy to walk away
And smile at memories made
No regrets at all and no tears
If any would fade away

I love you more now than I did before
I can only speak the truth
This heart of mine is breaking right in two
As it belongs to you

Do you remember what you said that day
How terrible you felt inside
When all those clouds of disappointment
Blew into your lovely skies

Your life could not get any worse
To yourself you sadly said
Because your glorious sun no longer shone
While lightning crashed ahead

Your teardrops fell like rain that day
Unnoticed in the downpour
Torrential streams from the blackest skies
One had ever seen before

One day your sun returned to shine again
Winds of disappointment changed
Your flowing tears glowed into a radiant smile
As your life’s direction rearranged

Now here you stand, downcast once again
Black cloudy skies moving in
Never give up looking for that sun of yours
To shine through those clouds again

Fragments of time visit me with delight
Like gentle skies, love the wind
When I am left lonesome late at night
Their sweetness drifts
Right in

Oftentimes I gaze within my own heart
Still as still can be
Then darkness seems a world apart
From time’s fragments
And me

I collect them patiently one by one with care
To give to a night with no trace
Of sweet memories held within my air
When I could clearly
See your face

In the coming of dawn, they will take flight
Like a flower floats in the wind
Returning, when I am lonesome late at night
Waiting for your sweetness
To drift back in

A cold wind blows into my soul
like a ghost dances
to the beat of a heart that's been broken
by the promise of words.  
Until, there is no more time left to ache
for what has not fallen
from the air you breathe
to be seen or heard.

Your silence speaks inside of me,
calling out to be tears
selfishly chaining this cold wind
inside of my soul,
to remain.  
All that I love has been painted
by the promise.................
of your words,
and the sweetest sound I know
is your voice
caressing my name.

Show me home in your eyes of fire
while still setting me free
to cross those bridges
I may burn.
Allow what we have to rest
in quiet happiness
of all the unknown ways
we can learn.

Exhale above me with lips
with no selfishness
and an intimacy I can see
without searching.  
Exhaust my inner urges
with your ink and paper
while I soar within
my yearning.

Pen me poetry that cries out
to be the lyrics,
all the pieces of my heart
learn how to sing.
Turn the key to the lock
of beautiful phrases,
draw me a fine portrait with
your word strings.

My fingers have learned
how it feels
to get burned.
When your every
“I’m Sorry”, left a scar,
deep and unearned.

The words on your lips
whispered the truth
while you slept.
Leaving me no longer wondering
why you smiled
as I wept.

My heart finds itself smiling
into the numbness
of your vacancy.
Your memory’s grown silent
and is now dead
to me.