She ****** my **** and fell in love I mentioned that it was a bad idea That I was broken and not ready She pushed for us to go steady I found myself not listening As I had already predicted Yet she kept on keeping on And wouldn't leave it alone Trying to fix me and change me I knew from the start that wouldn't happen But in the end She still ****** She was the one that needed fixed
Just wanting to hear your voice To know that you were there And would listen when I would call The truth was There wasn't anyone at the other end of the line anymore Your line had been disconnected I never got to say goodbye I just didn't want to hang up
Make it, grow it, feel it Love it, work it, do it Say it, mean it, be it Hold it, caress it, endure it Question it, solve it, understand it Nurture it, direct it, protect it Smile for it, live for it, die for it Cry for it, blush for it, never deny it
Without restriction Blinded by lust and love I took your virginity Never to be undone
I pushed the first domino Unknowing of the journey ahead Or the repercussions of my deed I don't judge you For the choices you've made The things you can't take back But I judge myself For pushing that first domino
To watch you Sails unfurled Rudder missing As you ran rampant With no direction As the other dominos fell Was heartbreaking
You're mad at me Because I'm not in love with you But that takes time
I don't bow to anyone except for one
I appreciate you and who you are as a person But loving you still takes time Don't judge yourself so harshly We live in a real world And it's time you got real with yourself
I'm flattered that you find me that lovable But I'm not truthfully It's very easy To fall in love with me But not to love me for me That is something every potential needs to know
I realize this and do my best to be honest But it still isn't enough to keep me From breaking hearts
Love just doesn't come as easily for me As it may have for you
I apologize for letting you fall in love with me I am not worth it Because I am in love with another
This isn't arrogance. I write poetry and am attractive. FML.
My heart skipped a beat Not once, but twice! In her presence I felt weak On the edge of my seat Vulnerable and nervous I was afraid to talk Not knowing what to say "How are you doing today?" And that seemed to be okay She smiled the sweetest smile It's direction was obvious It's purpose intentional I fell victim to it's power And I knew at that very moment That I would fall in love with her I already had
Constantly searching Not even knowing what to look for Just knowing that something is missing A constant quest to find someone or something To fill an empty hole inside Nothing feels complete Just a pull to keep searching And find what it is that I'm looking for Looking for a familiar face In a crowd of familiar faces Not knowing who it is that you're missing Home but lost Forever searching Just looking for what is supposed to be there But unknown emptiness And the hunger it pulls To have a full life And feel complete Whole again
Distant memories Of times long past Voices forgotten Some faces too These moments in our lives Don't always last They stay fleeting But will never die The sounds of adults laughing And familiar music with unknown meaning Catching lightning bugs Like it's the first and last summer of our young lives The glow of the moon Brightly gleaming This feeling of freedom will never be replaced A world of promise and opportunity Up for the taking Ignorant to the knowledge The cage of our innocence Is slowing breaking Without realizing what is at stake Or even There is a limit To our invincible days At this very point Beauty and love Will not hide from us It is in all shapes and forms To breathe in and see And touch and absorb In this very moment in time The world is ours Yours and mine
Every now and then It can feel good to be alive To be happy to be yourself To feel thankful To be the one that walks in your shoes
These days only come every now and then So we have to make the most of them They give us strength for when the days aren't so kind When the tears well up in our eyes And everything has us feeling overwhelmed Maybe not that loved or appreciated Or just downright defeated
It's the memories of those days That only come every now and then Where it feels special to be alive To keep us in our place To keep our feet on the ground
To just know that it's not so bad Every now and then
Everyone makes mistakes Loved ties come undone Trapped in the past Tomorrow will never come Letting regret go No matter how long ago
Sometimes things feel like a voodoo curse But everyone makes mistakes Never forget, it always could have been worse
It is never as bad as it seems A positive perspective, a must Without it The downward spiral will never end Everyone makes mistakes You have to forgive yourself first to mend
My favorite lie Is to be told that everything is going to be alright To feed that hope that things will get better Somehow life will be perfect one day This is a beautiful lie It tricks you and comforts you In a time of need No one talks about it But we know the truth This lie gets us through the mess One more push to get through this On to tomorrow The next day The next struggle But don't let it get to you Everything is going to be alright
Gauging the difference Between what is real And what is faux It's hard to tell anymore Even people are fake With feigned interest They smile and pretend To be your friend A dangerous world Living amongst all these fakes Acting ability they do not lack Where do you run to When no one has your back Look past the outer shell To see what lies within A heaven or hell A friend Or enemy Hiding behind a mask The ability to see what is true Shouldn't be such a task
Nine months of wanting to be somewhere else A quest and yearning for home A countdown of days Waiting and waiting Surviving and avoiding death Every day that passes A little bit closer to home Knowing my son is growing in my absence Wondering if I will see him again Will he grow up like me? Without a dad?
Finally home But things don't feel the same Like looking through a stained glass window Familiar faces Familiar places But distorted and untrue Home doesn't feel like home anymore I feel out of place And don't know what to do
People ask me if I'm fine But I lie through a feigned smile I realize I can't relate to anyone anymore And especially That they can't relate to me at all
I am alone Surrounded by the people that love me
People thank me for my service But I feel guilty for surviving When others didn't
This is about my time spent in Iraq while in the US Army and how I felt when I got back home. I didn't even realize at the time that I had PTSD. Time is the best medicine and things have gotten better but I haven't forgotten.
Why is so hard to find When it's right in front of you It rides on your back And it's bringing you down You keep hiding it like it's a secret But it's as obvious as ever You're so transparent I don't see you anymore All I ever wanted from you Was one thing In your eyes You may feel it's alright But the more you stray The worse it gets And you're getting so lost No one will be able to help you Find your way back You're burying yourself In a hole you keep digging The respect I had for you Is slipping away You are imprisoning yourself Behind a wall of lies All I ever wanted was the truth It will set you free
Feeling lost sitting at home I've been on autopilot so long I'm making tracks in my carpet Nothing but a figurative circle
I keep telling myself It will be okay It's only temporary You are not alone
And I know This is just how life is sometimes But that doesn't take the pain away
Sometimes you don't even need a reason to hurt Your brain just starts to send the wrong signals I am writing right now and it doesn't matter if it ***** I am speaking to no one and to everyone Just to not feel so alone
I'm not afraid to cry But I'm tired of feeling like crying It's a melancholy thing I suppose And even if it doesn't feel good I'm still appreciative of the ability to feel
This isn't a matter of actually being alone I just feel like a stranger in my own skin People are trying to help me And I'm not denying it
It's only temporary, right?
I'm obviously in a state of depression right now. I used to write a lot and it was very therapeutic for me so this is a forced attempt to start again.
It's been so long That's I've forgotten many things Pertaining to you
What you smell like How it felt to be next to you The joy you used to put in my heart These things aren't necessarily forgotten But their memory has lost it's meaning And that part of my life now seems unreal
I remember when we parted ways That I felt lost and that I was confused About what the future may hold Falling in love again, with someone else Seemed impossible at the time
Yet, here I am now Wondering why I ever even fell in love with you To begin with
When the heat of the moment was gone There wasn't enough left to make it worthwhile
I won't disgrace our time together By saying it was a waste of time But I know now that true love Is unforgettable
Bruised and confused Not much left to lose The fork in the road Which path to choose The worst times I leave behind To begin again And let the sunshine shine through An end is another's starting block Feed me lies It's better than reality I ask too much The lines we've drawn Bring too much clarity You murdered love And stuck me with a curse Of not forgetting Wanting change And forgiveness Honest attempt at being my best Man, father, brother, son, friend Throwing regret into the gutter
One of my dreams growing up Was to end up being a father and a family man When I heard you were on your way Was one of the first wishes I was ever granted
I missed most of your first year Because I was overseas Although not a day went by Without you on my mind
I came home And watched you grow Your smile and laughter Reminded me of the innocence I had lost while I had been gone
I may have not been the perfect father to you But you have been the perfect son You taught me how to be patient again How to love and let someone in There were times when I felt You were the only one that understood me And you were just a little baby
When you came into the world Everything became a little more scary Reality and priorities changed Because I had to protect you from the evils You also gave me hope That the world wasn't that bad off Because it had people like you in it
You patted my back when I was sad You told me, "Everything is going to be alright, Dad" You meant it and I believed you
I call you "future man" all the time But the truth is, You are a better man than most I've met
I am here for you Always and forever I am trying to be the man For you to emulate
My hunger for recipricated love Had left me starving I was famished because I had been left without Too much at once could **** me I had to take it slow So unfamiliar to me I couldn't even remember how to do it properly Out of place Out of mind Out of patience Out of time Wondering if this circus will ever end Keep on giving Never receiving I'm setting a trend All I want Is to get what I give
You have quite the selection Your customer base Have lived a life of rejection With pocket change to spare Head to the ghetto shop In your local hood To get your under-quality good
Your forty options are near endless To sate the alcoholism of the hopeless Everywhere I turn There is a security camera Mainly to record A niche in a world Lacking glamour
The coin-tilt game that I see kids playing on Surely can't be legal Yet they flock there To open pavement As a seagull
The hood respects you And needs you Even though your necessities are seriously overpriced The lack of a car or high gas prices Creates your demand Your convenience Makes quality get sacrificed
Should a drug addict or otherwise desperate soul Try to rob you blind They will be lucky to end up serving time Because you are ninja hiding in the open
Sounds like a stereotype or cliche But it's most definitely true The ghetto shop exists And will treat you like a friend Always, "Thank you, come again"
It's difficult to say goodbye Especially to you I knew parting ways wasn't forever So I said it as we kissed Even though it hurts It's nice to know you're missed
One last embrace As the world burns A goodbye to yesterday To welcome tomorrow The end of a beginning To sail upon a sea of possibilities Watching the past Breathe it's last Accepting the future Even though it's uncertain Knowing that one foot forward Is a step in the right direction Bringing down the house To build a city Towards the horizon The path I walk Destination unknown To harvest the seeds I've sown
I'm ready to start writing again. It's here I have something to say Probably some ******* or nothing that matters It may always matter I don't know Just wondering if I lay my head down Will I be a better man tomorrow? We're all a little broken It's okay to think about yourself But what do you need? What do you want? What is the point? Are you okay with being okay? The sky will always be blue
Long night, feeling reflective after seeing my son
Smash stuff around Be angry Your primal emotion Things aren't fair and you're upset about it Stomp on others Spread your negativity It is contagious Your vibe is ******* with us all
You are a grown baby Nothing can make you happy You wouldn't know happiness If it landed in your lap Free costs too much Nothing takes too much Compassion is selfish An easy day is too hard
The best you have is pretend That is all on you
You're so full of **** It smells
You'll never get enough mother's milk You big, ******* baby Keep *******
Sometimes it's hard to find The time To be kind Always about what's mine Tightroping a fine line A dinner better cooked than dined It's not my fault I drank too much wine Maybe that's a sign To slow down Weigh options Value to pound King, no crown Sometimes The best music Has no sound What we want Is sometimes lost Then found Who we hold we hold close Make up what matters most Stand up and be Let rhythm rhyme Let freedom be free
I'm sorry I was gone when this started Not my fault for that But I feel like I wasn't there for you
I know life is tough And escape is tempting I do it myself
Wrong place Wrong time Don't know the details Don't need to Fact is You succumbed and it got you
It brought you down Almost everyone has turned their back On you And I know that pushes you down
But I am here for you I know you And I love you I want good things to happen for you I am forgiving and understand What I can
Life isn't a bunch of ice cream cones Or trips to the zoo A long Sunday drive A barbeque
Life is painful sometimes Real painful We all need an escape A break from what's bringing us down I get that
All I really want you to know Is that I'm here for you
If you need someone to stop you I can do that for you If you need someone to talk to I can do that for you If you need to unload on someone I am that person
Please Let me be a point of light in the darkness I can help you find your way if you're lost And I will guide you back
Sometimes we forget That it isn't easy We all judge But we forget
Disney movies Tell us everything should be perfect When you want it most It will come to you Real life tells us otherwise
I don't expect perfection I know we are flawed And that is where true beauty lies In understanding And not judging (Grammar helps)
Everyone hurts There's too much pain out there No reason to give in Keep it in perspective
****** days Bad times Lame lines Hurtful signs
Noone can hurt you As much as you can yourself
Just dig in and know The roots are deeper than that Being stubborn never was so stubborn And that's okay
Take responsibility for yours And give cheers for others You are not alone If is very selfish to think that
We are here with you. Never (again) alone
Sometimes you have to work for it Sometimes it's just about being yourself Someone will want that Even if someone before, didn't
Don't give up Don't give in Look up to the stars Believe In what the heavens hand And give
You are a true friend And I love you with all of my heart Through these times while you're being tested It's not worth giving up Over what you've invested
Where you live Isn't always an option A beautiful thing, really Without, where would the children go?
An escape They are searching for All you have to do is offer They are small businessmen Looking to make a buck They are tired of their family being dry
Just let them know that there is something Out there besides... What they know They are looking for more than the most privileged do It's about the men they know Lacking of what they show
Kids want what they think is perfect Once they don't get it They rebel I've been an ******* since the day I knew Santa wasn't real All I wanted was to be told the truth
You were only a child I got lost in My own troubles I didn't forget about you But I got lost
The idea was very novel That I should write words Again and again To find new ways to tell you How much I loved you Turning something intangible Into something so beautiful It hurt to fully absorb it How many ways can I find To tell you how I love you? The prospects are endless As is my endearing affection for you