The hardest thing
To put into words is
How you're feeling
When you don't know
How you're feeling.
You call me up again
Just to sing some lyrics.
You hang up
And I'm left hanging.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
You're hurting bad, again,
And I don't know why.
Worse, I don't know
What you want me to do.
So I'm panicking because
There's a guy who really, really likes me
And he wants to make me happy
And what do I do with a boyfriend?
All I know is how to hurt people.
And here we are again
In the middle of the night.
You're asking,
"Would you drop him if I asked you to?"
And of course I would.
****.
Just ask.
Go ahead and ask.
Tell me what to do.
I don't have a clue right now.
But instead, this time
I say,
"*******.
"Quit using me."
And you say, "Thanks. Bye."
That's not what I want -
Oh God.
It hurts more when you're not here;
It hurts more than when you treat me like ****.
I don't know how to be without you.
So I go to his house
And as I kiss him
I think
What would happen if
I told him I love you?
Because I do, you know.
I told you I didn't
But I regret it.
Would telling you that
Fix this?
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
So much
So very much
So very very much
Oh yes
Oh yes