I hope no one else wakes up feeling dead i n s i d e

What is rest
hole in his chest
Energy irrelevant
his body use less
Depression had a grip
he felt useless
Blinded by love
he felt foolish
Again..

Dreams
surreal
Visions of a place
that permanently change
Expressions on my face

Drugs for the discomfort
a temporary joy
Though when it settles down
again i feel devoid

Hills and pretty skies
animals and trees
Are better company
than those surrounding me

Cyanide in seeds
he thought to pick a bunch
And blend them in a mix
to rise above the slump

Weakness comes with strength
darkness moves with light
My yin is missing yang
i lost my will to fight

When they said
love is blind
That was not a lie
when i reached
Out to you
i shouldn't have tried

Tons of fish in water
the sharks will catch the slow
I wish i could be eaten
but life wont let me go

Babe ;
I don't call her that cuz she's not mine..

Out of gas
out of joy
Devoid
lacking energy
severed
Depressed
confused
A mess
anxiety inside
My chest
im pressed
Looking for an answer
something to clear the way
My mind perplexed and clouded
with heaving disarray
I used you as a bridge
you broke as i was crossing
I hate myself for this
no medicine for pain
The harm has much to give
iv everything to gain

No one's sweet anymore
people taste bitter
****
unsatisfying
Everyman for themselves ;
my heart crying
Where is love ;
that honey flavored bliss i wish to find
So that i forget about the blades which came behind