I just sprouted
and all I see
are tall trees
beside me
all big and strong
bare fruits and all

Now I'm scared
cause if I didn't grow
like them
I will deemed
a ****
an unwanted ****
a plant in a wrong place
Now the pressure is on
I want to grow tall and strong
bare fruits and all
but before that
let me enjoy the sunshine
and air.
I promise when the time come
I will make them proud
with all the fruits
I will bare.

A day filled with nightmares
is today
a day I wont forget
Yes its is true
cause when I look
back to this day
I see a silhouette
of you
Darkness filled with nightmares
and frights
Yes I was scared
I was afraid
How could I not be
No ones was at my aide
but I got braver now
soon you'll see
that this day filled with nightmares
will be filled with glee



Im happy this day
Yes its true
a day filled sunshine
and happiness
without you

do I miss you?
no I dont
will I miss you?
no I won't
Its this day I am free
free from you
free as I can be

This day is bright
and filled with hope
like the season summer
thats filled with laughs
cause the warmth of my smiles
burns to this day

A day without you
is no longer hard
Im surrounded by the things I love pink roses and yellow lights
Im in a dream
and
I take flight

Who said heartbreaks
are bad
It freed me from you
now I celebrate
the anniversary
of me losing you.

Im floating away
but my heart in stray
I know im not hurt
but im in pain
Im in the middle
of Im just "alright" and
Im just "okay"
In the middle
of dark and day

Im a colorful silhouette
A beauty thats unstable
cause when Im not in the middle
I will be gone.
The beauty thats dependant
on light and rain.

Never ask
when is your time
everything will be fine
if death is an escape
then dont be in rush

Struggles isnt just for a day
pain will linger too
even when you pass
it will stay
to those you loved
to those you prayed

struggle with them
mourn and cry
cause if death is an escape
then be afraid to die
Death is an escape
for alone
the living will tell your tale
and will feel your pain
cause it will hurt
more than you know
like a thousand cuts
for them alone

They will asked why
with tears
that you cant dry
for you left in pain
and not in peace

a hole in their hearts
that will never be filled
cause when you escaped
it was through that hole

So live a life
though
shattered and broken
it will be fixed
not by you
but with life itself
It will make a way
so that there will never be a hole
to be filled
but whole you
will be in its place.

I gave myself
I gave my all
and
theres a word
that I dont know
how to say
If its you
its always Yes
never a NO


Im afraid to lose
what something
I thought I have
If those words
could escape my lips
I would stop it
with my finger tips

Its a Yes
and have always been
a Yes for you
no matter how hard
cause you where
worth it
even from the start

I thought my heart is stone
They called me names
allot of those were to bring shame
but it never bothered me
Isn't that how its supposed to be?
but today is different
my heart is broken
like it never been broke before
my world went crashing down
how can I not frown
when I heard
Im just okay
To the thing
I have given my all
my time
my attention
my passion
my hopes
my prayers
my dreams
my life
It *****
Im lame.