Im sorry mother,
Ive done you wrong
  I didnt listen to your song.

But why bother?
Wise old father,
  He knew this all along

Youngest sister,
I will miss her
  Many years I will be gone

Loyal dog,
Beware the frog
  And you shall not be wrong

Girl I care for
Run for the door
  I can not sing a love song

My dear brother
From another mother
  Stay away from the toxic ****

Good bye earth
Good bye sky
  Please forgive me and spin on

I lie in bed and close my eyes
Knowing I go to my next demise.
There he sits and there he waits
My torturous wraith at hells dark gates

Grabbing me in his claws
Grisly smile petrudes from jaws
Tightly bounds me in barbed wire
My allegiance is his one desire

Tattered scarab, rusty knife
Yet no move to take my life
Slowly starts to part the skin
And slowly slides his hand in

Grabs my love
My happy, my peace
My grateful, my smile

Locked away in a chest.  
Only returned for a quest
an eye for an eye
A heart for a heart

Gabriels fallen
Gabriels demise
He shall not rise
Dont give in to those lying eyes

I made a mistake
It's caused my heart to break
I didn't realize what was at stake

The look of terror in your eyes
Filled me full of self-despise
Three months is too short I now realize

My kisses of poison
For no other reason
But to provide your addiction

Pain and terror
I'm such a monster
I'm now starting to wonder

Do you really love me?
Or am I that scary?
Have I lost you, Baby?

I'm on the edge
Leaning over this ledge
Back to you, I am needing a bridge

I'll go shut down
Maybe just drown
In the the tears from your frown

I gave you my soul
Wasn't that a costly toll?
You trace my scars
or are you drawing prison bars?

I tell you what i hate
Your friends i try to tolerate
I dont like this new nitch
Your not usually a *****

I love you
But it can be hard
You blame yourself for my crash
But then turn to conform with those I Bash

What does it take?
Just drive in the stake
Since Im such a life sucker
Atleast i could get away with my ******

Since im soulless
Since I hold you back
Since Im just a punk
Since I died to you

Rip my guts out and hang them like streamers
Run my skin in a grinder and have your confetti
Spike my blood with all your *****
Fry my fingers in the greaser

Throw my brain and heart in the trash
Burn my eyes and ears and lips and tongue
Use my bones to build a bed
Boil my nerves so i wont feel pain

But leave my feet
They are what i didnt use
I should walk, no run, away
But i already cut them off so it would be easier to end me

The perfect ******
My own death
Ill naught be caught
Ill finally get what i deserve

The ultimate gift of life?
Can i just skip it to hell?
I wish i had died that day
Why couldnt I have gone faster?

Let the white turn red
With what i have bled
Here is your christmas cheer
Feed my ashes to your ******* reindeer

Happy Holidays
Merry Christmas
Let me do this perfect ******
Then you can say your happy and merry a little cheerier

It's the way you talk
The way you walk
Its the way you are around me

Your smile makes me warm and fuzzy
Your laugh makes me dizzy
Its just the way you are around me

Trying to cuddle closer
Trying to hug me tighter
Its just how you are

The longest good-byes
The twinkle in your eyes
Its the way you are around me

I love you with all my heart
And you love me with yours
Its just the way we are

Wake up in the morning
Hes slammming on the door
I yell im up so he could hear me
He screams back and i just ignore

I step out to go and make food
He gets angrier and yells louder
"Do a work out, Lose weight"
I blow it off, dont let it bother

Disrepsectful?
I hate you!
Bipolar?
Thats you!
The reason I hate life?
Guess who!

Its a day of thanks
A day of family
it really stinks
tell me this is trickery

I cant go anywhere
I cant do anything
I cant be me
without your disapproval

Go ahead and scream
It doesnt phase me anymore
Around you im in a bad dream
to me you are no more

My mind is shattered
My life is battered
My friends are scattered
This isnt to be desired

I couldnt come to look at you
I couldnt bear the icy blue
I know you doubt what i say is true
But I really do need you

My closest friend
to the end
A friendship too strong to bend
But now I just want to mend

I shut down
Taking all I have to not frown
I must seem like such a clown
All I want to do is drown

My life should be over
Call for the Undertaker
I never have been such a crier
Is there nothing that can make this better?

Little Red
Red Head
I want you to know what I have said
I need you to get off the death bed

My silent screams
The return of dreams
It almost feels like we are on separate teams
I shouldn't have believed the way things seem

I just need you to forgive
I need you to help me live
I never should have been so assumptive
Me out of your life is easily conclusive

I shut down
I change myself
I **** my soul
Never cared for, I never knew

I didnt ever want you hurt
I had no clue that I mattered
I didnt want to lose you
So I threw you away

I shut you out
I shut down
I shut...
I...
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