My heart
has cracked open
like the most
fragile of
elusive
eggs
viscous fluid
drips d
            own
upon the plate
filled with
fissures,
spidercracks that
threat to
quake into
seismic
         measures
and eventually
piece off into
oblivion
and only when
I can finally
unfold myself
from these
underwater
embryonic bends
fetal stretches
and folds
that never end
only then my arms
reach out
into the night
searching
and,
in tiniest of beams,
in one fell stroke
of midnight kismet
I find you
around me
in colored chromium
wrapping me up
headstrong,
filling my
wounded sutures
with
     liquid
gold

I know i've gone to long
  without a sound.
Life is moving on
  with or without
Me, My self and its doubt.

Why I cry so much
How could you lie so much
I thought that I could trust
not me but you.


Forever not enough
until the day gets stuck
between the rising sun
and the moon.

Deeper i'm afraid
of what all I could say
   not feeling right today
blurry sight
insane,
is more than just a feeling.

off the clock no one knows
I won't tell, I won't show
what you want, here you go
now get out, leave me alone.

All I got, what I need
this sick hunger, I feed
forgot not just how to breathe
but asked why is this is me?

I don't think when I speak
lost and still losing
what I find i'm choosing
all that I do.

I'm hopeless
Looking over
The wishing well
Full of gold coins

I throw one in daily
Never knowing
What else craving
To summon for

You're always it

So on days
I'm lost
Short of fuse
I grab my bucket
And use

Now not realizing
The coins have flowed
Outside of brick walls
Unto my doorstep

I am hopeless
Forever now
Forever will be

Is it wrong
To want to be alone
In your own solitude
Doing whatever
Soothes your soul?

1411

Of Paradise’ existence
All we know
Is the uncertain certainty—
But its vicinity infer,
By its Bisecting
Messenger—