I wonder, have I ever known you?
A friendship that sparked instantly,
We had a lot in common,
A breakthrough for me who disliked guys,
The friendship that I was wishing for,
Or so I thought.

A war that we fought,
Without realizing what we had was toxicated,
Trying to salvage something that was long broken,
A week of fun and smiles,
Followed by a week of despair and tears,
That was the repetitive cycle of our friendship.

I wonder, have I ever known you?
A  friendship destroyed by the lies you made,
Strengthen by your hypocritical self,
People hated me for the image you set,
My intentions were misunderstood,
Made me look like “I’m in it with you”.

I felt like I failed my best friend,
Leaving him consumed by your darkness,
With that mask that remains inseparable from your face,
Hiding away from all the unspeakable act that you did ,
Creating a delusional for people to believe,
I believed it.

I wonder, have I ever known you?
When you lied to my face to them,
whenever you were with me,
I thought I had you figured out,
Well, there’s a lot more then what meets the eye,
Honestly,I pity those who is still stuck in the clasp of your beautiful lie.

What’s left is the feeling that has held captive within me,
A source of darkness slamming me back to the past,
Consuming me whenever it has the chance to,
A series of voices that comes with it, blaming myself,
Now, even the sight of you gives me anxiety,
Even if that person isn't you.

I wonder, have you ever known me?
You broke the one thing I cherished the most, friendship,
You created something I hate the most, misunderstandings,
You made people think I was involved in something I despise the most, an affair,
I kept blaming myself that, I forgot to blame you,
You were not a good friend and perhaps, I didn’t know you.