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466 · Sep 2020
PTSD
Megan Sep 2020
The ghosts in my head
The ghosts in my room
Ever since I was fifteen
Thank god no one knew

I spin round and round and round
I’m happy til they break through
Laughing about it
What else is there to do
Movies
Songs
Stories
My own mind is my ennemis


The ghosts in my head
The ghosts in my room
Ever since I was fifteen
Thank god no one knew
Until they found out
280 · Sep 2021
I said.
Megan Sep 2021
My bubble will pop,
It hurts.
It’s okay for now, made of steel.
The more you shake it
The more I doubt it’s durability

Rose coloured glasses,
They said
I’m fragile,
They said.

I am.

If you drop a plate, it chips.
When it finally cracks,
You put gold in the crevasses,
Say that it makes it more beautiful.
Load of *******,
I said.

Rose coloured glasses,
They said
You’ve changed,
They said
You’re stronger now,
They said.

Life,
It shakes my bubble
So hard sometimes, it makes me fear earthquakes less.

See, I need my glasses to see.

Rose,
Blu-ish…
Did you know green’s my favourite colour?

Green coloured glasses.
The grass is always greener in someone else’s yard.
Seems everyone’s bubble has popped

They’re waiting for mine to drop.
It doesn’t **** you but it hurts like a *****
261 · Mar 2018
Freckles
Megan Mar 2018
Life was never nice to her.
It wasn't fair, it wasn't good
but it was life and she accepted it. Even if she could she wouldn't change a thing.
She wore a thick pale armour, skin that for a long time didn't feel like her own.
Her feelings were ironed stamped on her heart so deep that sometimes she fell apart.
She got use to feeling like she was drowning in tears while her cheeks were dry.
Her hair flowed with the wind and she smiled and smiled and smiled again to convince herself that one day her scars would stop ripping appart.
Her skin, now her favorite part, held dots, dots that didn't mean anything except to her.
She told herself that everytime she laughed or cried a new freckle would appear... "One day they'll hide me whole, one day emotions will be temporary and I'll be free."
258 · Aug 2018
Cliché
Megan Aug 2018
And we’re on the phone like this, 00:44 am.
I’m on the balcony so my roommates don’t hear
I’m freezing a little bit cause i’m in my *******
I don’t have my glasses so the city lights are kinda fuzzy and man, does that one star reminds me of your eyes.
We talk and we talk about our day
How I’m starting art school soon and we’re gonna be together forever.
You hate your school and the job is going great.
We’re gonna have a puppy and name him Wilbert.
« I miss you little dove.. 
-Missing you too baby »


This feels too much like a cliché but ****, I get it.
257 · Mar 2018
Rape. There I said it.
Megan Mar 2018
It’s not even about safety
It’s really hard to say but once you’ve been ***** there’s really no more boundaries in your mind between intimacy and what everyone else can have.
Someone I don’t know has seen and touched me in ways I only want my lover too.
It feels like I am an object to play with and gets thrown away when they’re done.
It’s a constant back and forth between fear and “you’ve already been used so it dosen’t matter anyway”
Like i’m a piece of clothe that’s been stained so you wear it to paint.
I’ll never forget the sinking feeling. The thoughts that went trough my head.
The moment he slid it in, I knew that something broke inside me and my smile would never be the same.
It’s time we talk about things that matter
223 · May 2018
Forget
Megan May 2018
“Dance with me”
To represent the time in my life were everything felt like weight instead of moments that I had to cary across the world. Just to feel worth it.
“Kiss me” Love me like only you can.
“**** me” like we’re never gonna kiss each other again. I want the best I’ve ever had.
143 · Mar 2018
Undefined
Megan Mar 2018
Kinda like water flowing through
Try to grip it and it runs away
Laugh at my pain
Kiss until I feel numb
A train wreck really
And here I am trying to define
Lost isn’t lost forever kid
104 · Sep 2020
Stephen
Megan Sep 2020
The first boy I wrote into existence
82 · Sep 2020
Water
Megan Sep 2020
Water.
Drink
        Drink
                Drink
I look at you while you look away
Coffee.
My fingers tap the counter nervously
                        Drip
                Drip
       Drip
I listen to you complain like life never smiles your way
Gin.
              Spin
             S p i n
           S  p  i  n
Saliva
You kiss me like i’m you’re water.

Then we’re back to being alone with one another.
74 · Sep 2020
🖤
Megan Sep 2020
“If I knew what love was,
I’d quote myself.”
But I don’t
69 · Sep 2020
Wrongs
Megan Sep 2020
So Imma write when i’m wrong

Girl, I can see you **** it up
Sitting here trying to patch it up

Without you I ain’t ****, but no pressure.
My mistakes feel like a fracture in my bones.
I do all this work only to watch it fall apart.


Haven't I already shown,
What it's like to love someone so much you treat their heart like it was your own?

You’ll find me writing me i’m wrong.
64 · Sep 2020
Mess
Megan Sep 2020
« Why do you do this to yourself babe? » he wipes the tear as I’m focused on the movie.
« I just love to feel »
I love having my heart tear open by star crossed lovers or cuddling you cause I couldn’t look away when the scary ghost jumped on the screen.
I love to feel, even if they’re not happy feelings. I’m sensitive and I feel. Most of my life i’ve said that I feel too much but I’ve realized that its a blessing really to be able to get torn apart by something so beautiful than my own feelings.
It’s breathtaking really to be able to look in your eyes and have your feelings fill my stomach like I could melt and completely take your form.
It hurts most of the time, oh god those it hurt. I wish I could take them away from you because I know how to feel them.
Sometimes all I can see is your eyes turning just that much blacker and I know that tonight isn’t gonna feel any better.
I wish I could give you mine too and truly yeah, sometimes you get bits of the green in my eyes too.
I hope you see it, I hope you take it and you store it for when i’m sleeping and you don’t know how to breathe.
It’s a blessing and a curse really to love you like I do.

— The End —