When you are happy with someone, and I mean truly happy to the point where the stars in their eyes couldn't shine brighter or their scent couldn't be more intoxicating. You breathe in this happiness like a breath of fresh air. Dive deeper into unknown depths. Travel the world with no destination, climb higher mountains, seek the happiness it seems like no one could live without. You want to wrap them up with you like a warm blanket. You pray for colder nights so you could have an excuse to be consumed in their arms, wrapped up in them in their bed sheets. Their laughter seems contagious and you want to catch it like a cold. You want their light from their smile to be your sun and when you listen to their heartbeat its your melody, and you want to sing a song, you want to run up the street yelling, screaming their name. At this point their happiness is your cup of tea and it couldn't be any sweeter. This happiness soon goes away when you see their packing their bags, see they are running away from home and one day they just leave. They leave an mark on your heart that you can't scrub off. It feels permanent like its going to stay. Suddenly you feel like you are holding on to every breath, every tear, every little memory they left behind. You keep the things they left close to your bed. You hope that they come back and everyday seems to get harder. You feel like you can't live with out their touch. You would give everything up just to hear their laugh again. Until one day you don't spend nights drinking the whole bottle, You begin to breathe easier and your days spent thinking about their name on your tongue doesn't burn. Your shattered heart seems a little patched up like the teddy bear you had when you were four and your mouth seems to talk less and less about how they made you feel when they held your hand or touched your skin. They become a distant memory. Days seem like months, and it doesn't seem to hurt as much when you stop wondering, you stop searching for their face on a crowded street. Stop looking for every sign that's going to bring you back to them. You stop waiting for them to come back. You are able to close the curtain. You put this old love back on the shelf and you don't wait for them anymore, you don't wait for them to call your name. One day you forget it all and this is when you learn to be truly happy.

You left the kind of impression on my heart that singed my insides. It branded your name on my tongue and everyday I couldn't stay away from the connection. It was so strong that it made an atheist believe in God again. Over and over you told me that one day things will start looking up on me and that you just needed the time to heal. What a fool I was to believe that love existed in a man who played with fire. You easily burn me with desire, passion a never ending sadness that only grows like a **** deep inside the cracks of my broken heart.

he disappeared
when he left
he left me a cliche
a broken heart

Its just been one of those nights.
When I cant help but remember the little things
when I can believe in those who say "give it time"
When it becomes easier to sleep at night
and heaven doesn't look so lonely  
but when I think about it all
I cant help remember the time you held so tight
my hand was in yours and I felt safe
I felt safe from the water that was attempting to pull you away from me
or all the hurricanes that showed up that summer
one by one they took with them a piece of me
a piece that I gave to you
I couldn't help but to remember these things
because they seem so close yet so far away
and I wish I could make sense of it all
I wish I could stop pretending like I'm okay
and when someone mentions your name
I want to be able to say "yes, we we're once lovers"

Thinking about how easy it is to forgive you
but to hard to forget you
forgetting all the memories
forget all the feelings of knowing I had something
something special with someone
who made me feel like I owned the world
someone who made comets burst when he touched my skin
who drew the galaxies across my body
and made star clusters fall from my lips  
someone who looked at me like I was the universe
because he was an astronomer
there is now a black hole forming around my heart
because since I've let him go
I've been mistaking stars for crater rocks

Hands that I wish would hold my hand
instead clenched tighter around my neck
I'd sound like an idiot for saying I've fallen in love with you
but I cant help but fall for your simple impressions
you've left a perfect scar and I gave you my heart
and for that I have become a fool  
I feel like a joke to you
but remember when you held me and called me "yours"
memories of restless nights curled up in the back seat of your car
pretending like we had something more then just a friendship
now are stapled to my wall like polaroid's
makes forgetting you harder
especially when you put those stars in my eyes  
but I can never dare say to you how I feel
I knew when you were with me, you were with someone else
you cared to be somewhere else
and while I was to busy fighting the butterflies in my stomach
you were busy looking for ways to tear down my already broken walls
I told you "don't break my heart"
you took my words as a suggestion instead of a demand

We only have those late night car rides
Your thinking about getting home
I'm thinking about you.

Why did you do this to me?
Your the reason Im addicted to cigarettes
I'd become obsessed with you
So why did you make me so addicted?
Why did you carry on with lies and deceit
Why did you ask so many questions that night?
But why were my questions still unanswered?
Why did I want the time to rewind itself?
Why didn't you look at your phone
You didn't look at your phone all night
And it made me obsessed with smiling
Why did my body feel like it was on fire
When you kissed me with such passion
Pressing me up against the front seat window
Whispering "you look good"
Guiding your fingers through my hair
Why did I want to show off
What you did to my body that night
Why did you let me borrow
The scent from your sweater?
Why did you?
Why do people notice how you look at me
Why are you the reason time goes fast?
Why are you the reason I can't catch up?
Why am I falling for someone like you?
Falling for what you don't want from me
Why am I not good enough to be with?
Why am I not yours

I hope on New Years
When me and you are sitting alone
Drinking to the flames of the fireworks in the air
Your kiss will mean something
And I'll be called "yours"