There was a disturbing silence one I couldn't get rid of I wanted life, a little noise showing I'm not here on my own their smiles and their laughs all was silent to me maybe it was time for me to quit searching for something to make me feel human

But in a distance I heard a little noise I looked around to see you, surprised as I was it was unexpected who would've  though a person like you would give me the life and the company  I have been searching for

                    I hope this never ends

i feel icky
i feel gross
i hate my ******* self the most
he was easy
he was there
he had the touch but not the care
i want you
but i chose him
now were not even friends
i want real love
not just ***
but that's all that he expects
i couldn't trust you
it seemed too good
to be true so i did what i could
to **** it up
because i'm damaged
i wasn't sure how to handle it
i was so close
to feeling that love
but i sacrificed it for a ***