i love love
but i think that might be the problem
i have an idealized version caught up in my head
and nothing in reality quite fits

it hurts so much
you love her so much
but god do i love you
you messed up your chance with her
by playing with my feelings
but i miss the taste of you on my lips
and i see the posts you make
you're sad
i can see that
but it's because you miss her
and not me
but if you offered
if you wanted
i would run back to you in a heartbeat

everyone preaches about the tragedies life has to offer
they go on about how it's okay to feel down and to it's okay to not be okay
but no one talks about how to glue the pieces back together once you've had enough time broken apart
it's not quite about smiling through the pain to convince yourself that you're okay
but rather smile through the pain to remind yourself that you will be okay
smile through the pain to help you heal and become okay
it's hard
it's one of the hardest things to do, in fact
you get into a routine of laying in bed all day
not eating or eating way too much
not sleeping or sleeping way too much
losing contact with your friends or being unable to be alone
it's **** near impossible to turn those habits around
and suddenly you're overwhelmed because there's just so much that you can't control
but take deep breath, put a smile on your face, and say "one day, i will be okay"

i dont know much about constellations
or the stories behind them
but i said that stargazing was my dream date
and you told me
let's go and learn about them together

being around you is difficult
you make my heart stop and race
all at once
and you make me want to be a better person
and you make me smile more than anyone has in a long time
and you make me blush
and you make me nervous
and you make me laugh
and you make me happy

every part of me wants to dive into your arms
because when im with you
you make me feel
for just a moment
that everything will be okay
my mind drowns in chaos
but you make it slow down

i feel all of this
but i wont say a word
because while youre the sun to me
shes the sun to you
and you deserve whatever makes you happy
more than anyone ive ever met

Don’t tell me you need me
That love is the dangerous kind
Every night i went to bed
Dreaming of her
Our “I love you” turned to “I need you”
And our desires turned to handcuffs
We loved fast and we loved hard
But our love grew out of control
It became a topic of routine
I didn’t love her anymore
She didn’t love me
But we were connected
In more ways than we could count
We held on to an infatuation
That went too far
We were never meant to be one another’s
Despite how hard we tried
We fought and cried and bled
Until it was all too much
And then we fought some more
But all wars come to an end
And although we don’t regret
We will never forget the mistakes we made
So please
Don’t tell me you need me
Just show me you want me

and even though i know
that i wasnt good to you
you seem to have forgotten
you werent good for me either
i took the time and the motion
to leave us behind
to move forward
so we could both
conquer our own worlds
we were pulled in a million different directions
and we snapped back too often
too fast
and made each other bleed out
this is for the best
its time to say goodbye