My delusions are becoming real
my life has become so surreal
When I try and go to sleep at night
I Fight the demons that keep me up all night
Stuck in my head feeding my own sickness that I've breed
My hunger grows even though demons they must be fed
im starving them until
We all coexist inside my head.

Your gone like yesterday & your memories they haunt me
Like the blood stains on the carpet
From where you shot me
I've been half a live for a year
Not a day goes by that I dont shed a tear
I'm filled with regrets on how wreckless I was
I let you slip threw the cracks just as fast as yesterday comes.

I wish I had a voice to angry a population
To bring together a divided nation
But here I am just a slave to the corrupt system
Stand together to fight an injustice regime
Over throw the government and instill
Civil beliefs
Were tired of the fear you try and deploy
Turning this country into communism
Stripping us of basic human rights
Give us our liberty or prepare for a fight
There our millions if not a billions who wont go down with out a fight.

Oh you fingers look so nice
But they'd looked better in my vice
Cracking every bone picked apart
To make my very own thrown.

So far from gone to get it right
Lost in the madness to even see the light
Clinging to hope like that lonely piece of thread.

Driven by my desires
Fire and brimstone
Hell is where im going
So glad because i miss home.

Tick ,tock ,tick, tock
It was about 9:20 is when my heart stopped
The trust i had for you.
all the love i had & wanted to give to you
All ceased to exist.
The moment i found those two.
After the first i did my best to let it go but two more times really makes my crazy grow.
Idk if ill ever trust you again.
Heart so broken i dont even know how ill mend.
Just digging my own grave to  my inevitable
End.

Tell me about the webs you spin
Let me be the bearer of your sins
Ill be the judge to see if youll be condemned

Karma bows to no man or woman
Her actions may be quick & swift
slow & painful
Dealers choice

A little bit of trickery will help you in the lands of misery

Lost in a daze
My life is a maze
My emotions are unfazed
My heart has felt your taze
Broken and but unscathed
Ill make it untill tomorrow
Is what i always say

Itll only hurt for just a second
In the end itll be pleasant.

I speak to you of them demons i harbor inside
Demons ive delt with and how the effect the outside
You ask me to stop because it instillls fear in your mind
My sweat baby your the last one id hurt
You should be more afraid for people who wanna hurt you
Because i have a list a thousand pages long
Of stuff that im willing to do just to protect you

Every egg cracks eventually only time tells

Standing above the abyss
****** and bruised
Victorious one again
Big sh** eating grin
Life will not hold me down
As long as im breathing and my feet can be planted in the ground

Left with so much hate
I just pile it up on my plate
Forcing feeding it straight into my face

I like to sit and watch the world burn
And i dont like to exclude myself

Your a wildfire coursing through my veins

fabricated truths of the misguided youth

This ride i take
It has no plans
Unforeseen stops by this non guided hands

My perspective melts off these rose covered walls
Where i sit and play in its puddles and all the troubles it has cause

Fragile
Stretched to paper thin
My heart not easy to mend
Lost somewhere and dont know how it began
Cold wind blows across my blood shot eyes
Left frozen tears to withstand the sands of time.

Every homeless dog needs a good bone
Every now and again.

Its a long road into the unknown
All your insecurities & all of your fears
All seem to be there and never disappear
Constant battle between the love and hate
Should you press forward or become part of what aint

Is it just a show your putting on for me
Showing me all the things you know id love to see
Telling me all the things id love to hear
With my mind its so hard to tell
I pick away at every possibility
Drowing myself endlessly with it all
Sending my thought straight to negativity
Then starting it all over again a ever repeating cycle
This is insanity

Heavy heart
Dark thoughts
Will i ever make it through this part
Fades away as quickly as it came
Just dust in the wind scattering across the plain

Youre a favorite song that comes on the radio
On a really terrible day.

Tangled up with 2 serpents unable to break from their grip
I'll succumb to them both
maybe this old dog will learn a new trick

Far back within darkest parts
I harbor a small ounce of humanity
Its with this i pull the love to give you
Once its all gone
Ill have nothing left for you.

Im scared of what could be
If i could open up to let you see
How you truly you affect me
Most importantly im afraid to love again
What pain it brings after its all said and done

I used to think my drug addiction was the lowest point in my life
Which ended up sending  me into an
Amphetamine induced psychosis and putting me into the hospital.
Ive come to realize my lowest point was loving you and the hell i let you put me through and thinking i could help fix you.

I pull the bottle of the shelf
Covered in dust
I twist off the cap
I pour me a glass
Heres to me
For finally being alone
At last.

My hardest addiction to kick was and forever will be love

Eyes so bright has me feeling like a deer in head lights

Lost somewhere between here and there
Will i ever really make it there
Honestly really dont care

Living life on the edge of tomorrow

Ill never admit defeat
I will always get back on my feet
As long as im breathing
Ill be victorious and ill make you bow at my feet.

If i ever asked you to leave would you?
If i got on my hands and knees could you?
If i asked you to come live with me should you?
If this should be an opportunity you could seize would you?

You Stoke the fire that blazes inside my heart.

Joy is disease
Thats shined light on me
Spreading throughout my body
id wish id just let me be
Left me to wallow in my self pity

Im feening like a ****** off just one kiss
I didnt know you could catch feeling like this
Waiting to get my next fix
My drug girl done ran off
How did i end up like this

You are a contradiction running through my head