The moment you walked into the room
I knew i was doomed
I could see in by the look in your eyes
I did my best not to care
The reality of what i done was in the air
I could see it in your stare
I still dont know how you feel or what we will be
But i never ment to put you in that situation
im glad we can still be friends in the end.

All work with little time to play
Thats the blue collar kinda way

My heart
Its currently pending

Trapped in this prison with no way to escape
I look to the heavens to examine my fate
The road ahead will be tough and full of self hate
Tired of fighting the brick wall in my face.
To end it now and bring myself home
Or sit on this thrown depressed and alone.

She broke me down piece by piece
Untill their was nothing left underneath
Jokes on her ive been here before
Still has my exit markings on the door
I have a manual stashed someplace
Itll take me a while to clean up this place.

Im the grenade.
your the pin.
We go great together
Just like paper to a pen.
Separate us...
We just meaningful object
Made to destroy men

Your just a pothole on a backroad

Winter blues has came to collect on its dues
Will you be ready or will you be putting on your running shoes.

All this emotion crashing down like waves
I feel all warm like a nice summers day
I cant keep lying to myself on my feeling for you
Every time im with you they burn bright blue
I dont understand why you just dont leave him
Then again you just like the attention that im given and im always caving in.

Ill try and be sincere with the conversation we are having here
But producing it genuinely might leave you
crying from here

lost out in a daze
I've been strung out for days
life it doesn't seem to faze
but the pain it still stays

this road i travel
I've been down many times
Which i think its always fate
who brings me back
time after time
in fact its me and myself destructive behavior
though i have to admit this feeling i savor
the pain and the depression
it really works in my favor
i've made to the end of my road
which i may have cheated along the way
but life isn't fair so why should i have to be
this road i travel just isn't a journey
its a self mission to make me the person
i'm always dying to be.

Here i am still
All in one piece
You thought you broke me
All a facade to say the least
I was thrilled when you let me off my leash
No more master and shadow caster
Much happier without you around
I feel bad for the next guy
Who comes walking down your part of town

Taken away to the darkest place
Where ive been trying to make my escape
Everytime i run into fate
Who brings me back to the same old place

Tell her im okay
Tell her im fine
ive just lost my mind
Thats all
Ill soon to come around
As soon as i can find my feet
To put them on the ground.

In a world full of hate be the kindness you wish to create.

I should have left a  trail or something to find my way back.
Im so far off the path ill never find my way back.

The emptiness i feel is becoming more full
My emotions are becoming more dull
I have a glazed over darkness in my eyes
I hear satan calling me asking if i need a ride
I think for this moment i will take that ride.

You hummed your song as i sang along
As you carried on this lovely tune
I was whisked away that very day
You hummed that that lovely tune.

Thrown into the drakness where i fought to survive
Holding onto hope like im on the frontlines
Theirs no denying all the pain inside
So i make another cut just to feel alive.
They say pain is for the weak, id have to disagree
but the pain in loving you gots me all shades of fifty
Ah no no
Ill tell you about my sickness & how i feel inside
Itll make your skin crawl while you run in hide

No matter what free will choice you make
it always put you on the road you were meant to take

You will never enjoy life if you dont come of cruise control.

Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all my sins
Youve played your part
please finsh what you start
Bury me in the cover of the dark
Under the oak tree at our favorite park
No one would give it a second thought
Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all of my sins

You used to always compliment yourself in the mirror with the biggest smile on your face.
Now you cant even look yourself in the eye
Without an ounce of disgust rolling from you lips.
What happened to you and who broke you?
You were the strongest person i ever meet and you faced each day not having any regrets.
You were the one i looked up to and the one i strived to be.
Now you cant even make it out of bed without suicidal thoughts ringing through your head.
What happened to you and who broke you?
I need that man back.
With out you i am broken and full of regrets and self hate.
I hope you make it through this and you find a way to fix yourself.

Bottled up emotions
Tossed into the ocean
Made its way back ashore.

Loving you
Is like trying to
Love myself.
Though i try & try
It aint ever going to happen.

Riding a paved rainbow
To a *** of misery
That life has promised me.

This is the end of us
Body and soul ripped from two
We all knew i was doomed
From the moment you left this room
All the tears ive cried
Heavy thoughts of suicide
All i feel is empty inside
Body and soul doesnt coincide
The last words i write
i hope this makes you happy inside
Because for me
all i wanna do is feel alive

Ill take the view of your eyes
over a scenic ocean view any day.

Your my slice of heaven in this hell on earth.

Ive watched you from the other side for quite some time.
Whispering words of encouragement trying to make you happy inside.
I see the pain youve delt with and how you two coincid.
This is not the answer for you to feel happy inside.
I beg of you to put down the gun and try to find the light inside.

I have yet to figure out which is darker this pit im in or your heart.

Only time will tell
There no spells for this
Crippled with the thoughts of you
Forced feed your point of view
Bleeding out and i call for help
Death reached out his hand
Told me hes got big plans
To **** your name and to clean up all youve slain
To bring an end to all the misery and the pain
cause by you while on your reign
I took his hand here we stand
Hand in hand
To end the the man you drove insane
You made him blow out his brains
Only leaving his memory left in blood stains
Spread across his room.

Ive walked this road plenty of times
Ive seen it far in wide
Hollow, quite barren and its open wide
I never thought id be back here
Wallowing in all my fears
Oh the old memories
all those tears ive cried
this road it wont break me
I will not let it raddle or shake me
In return ill let it shape me
Oh for this road it will not break me.

For you to truly open up the door and welcome yourself in has to be the greatest achievement and this is where your story begans.

My heart was broken
Shattered in two
I quit believing what was true
Ive lost all hope
This is true
Ive about lost my head
All of this
And i  say all of this
Is because of you.

I wonder who will ever win the war i wage against myself.

I loved you with all that hate i had for the world
still do but sadly you broken my heart in two.
I wonder if that ever meant anything to you.

Lets talk about the elephant in the room
Its dark and scary and likes to consume.
Towering over me with her ghoulish smile
She knows everything even your denial
Comsuming your heart and even your smile
Casting her shadows is ever so vile
Her name is depression and she will never go away.
Just hides in my  darkness just waiting to play.

Broken ship lost in a stormy sea
You were my lighthouse
but your flame died out for me.

My heart you mended
Couldnt be more splendid
A whole new look on life
From your perspective
Got me out of my blues
And on to something new
For you im thankful
For you im grateful.

For the mear moments of flight
youre above everyone
nobody can tell you different.

Siren of song lead me to my death
Voice so angelic gets me feeling best.
Oh lead me to my death
Oh lead me to my death
Siren of song youve got me feeling best
Im coming along and following your song
Lead me to my fate at which i belong
Miles ive walked stuck with your song
Wondering if ill ever get to which i belong
My Feet are blistered and shoes have rot but here here I walk to reach your song.

You are my lighthouse in this stormy sea of darkness.