Intoxication leads to internationalisation,
Yet when I thought I saw your face,
It was just a hallucination.

Bar crawling can make you feel so small,
Even when I'm going a steady pace,
I feel I'm barely near a crawl.

I want to feel young and free,
Yet I feel I'm pushing my body to win a race,
All of this is just because I missed you with me.

Instead you're gone without a trace.

I thought time healed most wounds,
Yet my blood is red and pouring still.
My heart is being forced with staples,
To keep the smile I'm known for.

I'd wish for any scenario,
That involves our eyes locking.
Whether loving, suffering, burning or screaming,
I just want to see your face.

I'd wish you said no,
Then I could suffer easier.
Instead I'm left with tears
And consequences of our love.

I built confidence on a false hope,
this is where the seasons change.
I felt myself grow to be hacked down,
by the neighborhood lumberjacks.

As they burn my wooden soul,
They tease and joke.

"I can't believe they'd do this to you",
But you were the one who set fire to me.

I nurtured this garden, the animals roam free.
Held high with respect for the flowers around me.

I would water the lillies,
I sent them away.
I would keep one with me,
holding tight everyday.

The daisies kept growing,
creating fields of youth,
We giggled amongst them sipping lemon juice.

I lit a fire, forming a phoenix of wood,
I watched it fly away towards the sky.

I had wondered for hours why he didn't stay,
Caring for raspberries, blackberries in hay.
The water I used, was no longer pure.
It was full of toxins, crippling them all.

The flowers started wilting,
they turned to my face.
This isn't like you,
Perhaps I changed.

Soon amongst the deserted lands,
The smallest flower's head began to pop out.
It showed me the truth amongst the lies,
I almost felt myself begin to cry.

I nurtured this garden, the animals are gone.
Hanging my head, as shame has come.
Holding onto my lily, never giving her away.
For she's the only one, who truly stayed.