She is situated by the window with her eyes fixed on the empty night
"When did this happen?"
"You're asking the wrong question."
She inhaled all the despaired air, and it becomes her.
"Shut your eyes. What do you see?"
"Darkness."
He does not recognise her, and neither does she.
"Is this who you are now?"
"Maybe."

for once in my life, I don't want to write about you.
and even then,
I am still writing about you.

more damage is done
with every drag
say those words
you can never take back
fill your lungs
then suffer an asthma attack
smoke what you started
then raise your white flag

a fimiliar ray of warm sunlight settles on your face
it doesn't really matter where we are anymore
you feel like home,
and a love that will last
for the rest of my days

sudden anger and pride
cause us to give each other too much space.
don't you realise,
distance was one of our biggest mistakes?

the best is yet to come, but nothing good's come yet -
i wait for better,
until after the sun sets and the clock breaks.

dream state is now where we meet -
with unclear beginnings and endings
of what we speak.

illusions are uncontrollably building up in my mind.
god knows,
i'm just trying to put the past behind.

encounters have become ever so brief,
you forgot your home and
i forgot how to breathe

three days of
sunshine,
teasing,
and grins
stretched from ear to ear
then five days of
glaring,
thunderstorms,
rain,
and tears.

I'm shaking and
I don't want you to make me feel better
I don't want you to hug me
It snows and
you don't want me to keep things from you
you don't want me to be scared
We walk and
I don't want you to think I'm a child
I don't want you to be burdened by me
It's late and
you don't want me to leave
you don't want me to be with someone else
I'm home and
I don't want to fall
you don't want me at all

I deeply inhaled
every tobacco filled air
you ever exhaled.

How twisted is it
that I'm attached to a stench
that's suffocating?

Nicotine doesn't seem
so addicting and harmful
when compared to you.