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251 · Oct 2019
Stranded :)
AD Letwixt Oct 2019
This is the moment when I feel most like myself.
A small watcher in a moving place
I Sit and feel
think
And observe
And read, too

Sorry for the melancholy, but
I wish I could be lost here
Stranded in this place

I want to be swallowed up by this world
Just like this

I could do it I think

But first I have to get lost
246 · Dec 2018
12-19-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
My mind
A stone
Sitting at the bottom of a river

Slowly it weather's away
Until there's nothing left
242 · Aug 2019
Bereft
AD Letwixt Aug 2019
Bereft
A thing to be
When all is lost
But the breeze in
Maple tree
232 · Sep 2019
Run
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
Run
Restlesness,
Sink your fangs into me
My flesh will not protest

Your venom, my impetus
That glorious burning sting
Fill my veins and be my guide

Running to or running from
You make no distinction

Venom, in my veins coercing
And burning at the open wound
That ******* desire

That unceasing need to run
229 · Oct 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Oct 2019
Why should elsewhere
Be preferable to nowhere?
Or anywhere really….

Whatever “where” I inhabit
It will be my where.
228 · Mar 2019
3-26-19
AD Letwixt Mar 2019
Where you're not
Is where you wanna be
But once you get there
You'll forget about all the time it took
And all the suffering
217 · Jan 2021
1-13-21
AD Letwixt Jan 2021
Is this your body?
it isn't mine.

I think I must be wearing your skin
Because all I want to do is tear it off
Piece by bleeding piece

Take it back please
217 · Dec 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Dec 2019
The man lays in the gutter
Street splattered with blood

Hundreds of scrambling feet
Run to pick up his crown
205 · Jan 2019
1-24-19
AD Letwixt Jan 2019
Purest being
rather than muting all that is,
Water to my lips, warm breaths,
On cool skin
205 · Jan 2021
normal
AD Letwixt Jan 2021
I will never be normal enough for you,
so **** your normal
203 · Dec 2018
12-29-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
downward trickle
from mist, slowly falling down
the droplets make cool impressions
on warm skin
4
7
8
3
203 · Apr 2019
4-15-19
AD Letwixt Apr 2019
We would become like shadows
or faint plays of light on a wall,
dancing and fading,
rejoicing in our momentary existence
195 · Apr 2019
3-12-19
AD Letwixt Apr 2019
a letter from reality
like little scraps of paper
i can't quite make out the words
but the sentiment is appreciated
194 · Sep 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
You are my Eden, love
And I will eat the fruit of your tree

Let me curl into your embrace
Love,
Encircle me
193 · Sep 2019
Drugs
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
Just take my pills
200 mill-i-grams
Necromancer *******
****** labcoat pill down my throat

This experiment
An-i-ma-ted
meat on bone

Call me Lazarus
Cause I shouldn't have breath
If it weren't for the necro-chiatrist
The new god undead
191 · Aug 2019
Drops
AD Letwixt Aug 2019
Rain
rain
rain

I close my eyes

Rain
Rain
Rain

Where do the birds fly

When the sun hides behind
The iridescent
Little drops
That hide in puddles all around
187 · May 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt May 2019
I am not myself
The day is growing darker and
I am not myself
185 · Dec 2018
12-27-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
The little lights
Between here and there
That's where I'll be laying
Casting my gaze in your direction
184 · Jun 2019
Slip
AD Letwixt Jun 2019
Will you
Slip
With me?

Laughing and rolling as we fall

And then
slip
Into me,

Please hold me, I don't want to
Feel the cold.
183 · Jul 2019
Bedsheets
AD Letwixt Jul 2019
You smell like my bedsheets
What's your name again?
Sorry it has to be this way, love,
Sorry I'm not here for you, now
Will you remember me love,
My fingertips tracing in the dark
You smell like my bedsheets
What's your name again?
183 · Jan 2019
Yellow
AD Letwixt Jan 2019
yellowing page
Animated only by sentiment
-Even that is dying-
All is fleeting.
182 · Jul 2020
Can't sleep
AD Letwixt Jul 2020
It's 3am and I miss you
.
. . . . When your arms held
my fractured being
Stopped me from filing apart. . . .
.
But now you're gone
and I can't sleep.
181 · Jul 2019
Idol
AD Letwixt Jul 2019
That temptuous lure
All my idols
Eyes dancing in firelight
Speak wonderingly in my ear
Let me become drunk on you
180 · Aug 2019
Exist
AD Letwixt Aug 2019
Simply to exist
Watch branches
Fall and decay

I see myself
Dying branch
Reflected there

Lacking want and
Lacking Fear
Exist, and cease
180 · Dec 2018
12-20-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
The conversation takes us
With fits of laughter
And that pretty look on her face
Into a blissful unconsciousness
177 · Nov 2020
Rain jackets
AD Letwixt Nov 2020
Why do I always wear blue
Rain jackets
On sunny summer days
And pretend . . .

The stormy weather is only in my mind
177 · Dec 2018
12-26-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
I hope it rains today
Like on those short summer afternoons
When things were different
176 · Aug 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Aug 2019
if i forget my desire
i attain its object
175 · Sep 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
Don't let distraction masquerade as enjoyment.
Something lies under the surface.
172 · Jul 2019
Break
AD Letwixt Jul 2019
Such a long time
All of me was blind in the dark
That aimless search
Thank you
For breaking me
so I could find
myself
171 · Jan 2019
.
AD Letwixt Jan 2019
.
Heaven must be a dull place
If all the beautiful things are ******
168 · Jun 2019
The sky is bleeding
AD Letwixt Jun 2019
The sky is bleeding

                                      It knows

And there is no consolation for

                         Our feeble minds

And the black earth turns red

                          Eroded and pale

What a strange place this is

                          How small we must feel
167 · Oct 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Oct 2019
Though suffering seeps upwards through the floorboards
And creaks in the night
And comes when the wind shifts
And the moon’s light is blocked by the

swirling

Black

Sky

I have always had a morning
I have always known the warmth of a fireplace
I have always found an answer.

so I just wait.
166 · Oct 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Oct 2019
I did not know
or refused to know

the difference between improving the parts of myself
that could grow into things great and full
and help me grow into something more myself
grow closer to me

and changing parts of myself
because I felt hatred for them
though they were me

The desire to improve oneself often grows from self-hatred
and can only be cured by acceptance and love

yet
self-acceptance does not equal stagnation
165 · Dec 2018
12-30-18
AD Letwixt Dec 2018
old memories
Like water swiftly rising
From waist to chest, my mouth and nose
Suffocating
164 · Apr 2019
4-21-19
AD Letwixt Apr 2019
Sunny days and cloudy afternoons
The days slip away
rain dripping from the rooftop

But I am just waiting
And I can still feel the imprint of your body resting against mine
164 · Nov 2020
Untitled
AD Letwixt Nov 2020
Before, I was different.
Tomorrow, I will be different than I am today.
Even so,

I hope that I will remember what I was like
After today has faded into yesterday.

That I will not forget what it was to be me
In this present moment

Because once tomorrow comes, today will be forever trapped behind the pane of glass that separates present from past.
I want to remember how to feel that which can no longer be touched, to see that which is no longer visible, to hear that which is no longer audible.

Then, maybe
I won't have to spend so long staring through that impenetrable pane of glass

Because I will remember
AD Letwixt May 2020
I wish I could be enveloped
****** down to the root
Slowly being incorporated into its tree-body
Until I'm all tree and it's all me
163 · Oct 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Oct 2019
My essence wilts
In
this cruel cold

enduring truth:
That
all must gray

though sorrow screams
This
I whisper here too

sun’s healing warmth
will
always stay
162 · Sep 2019
behind
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
i left my eyes behind
because i wanted to see more

i left my mind behind
because i wanted to know more

i left my heart behind
because i wanted to feel more

i left my flesh behind
because i wanted to live more

i left my soul behind
because i wanted to be more
160 · Sep 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
I always carry a book with me
Like a place to hide
During the rainstorm
Warm and dry
160 · Jun 2019
Daylight
AD Letwixt Jun 2019
The daylight,

how elusive

How many hours
Until it slips away
Parting from me once again

And when i call out like a child
Will it not
-indifferent-
Look away?

I had spent years in darkness,
For the mind is a cavernous *****

Labarinthyne pathways
And crevaces that reach longingly, fingers outstreched into the deep

How long since
i had bathed in white sunlight?
And the sky breathing its warm breath-
The soft caress
And springs that ring like bells

Perhaps all memory of this daylight
Will be lured into the abyss
And even time will be lost in darkness

Evanescent
My joy is counted in minutes

And yet i feel grateful
that i, too,
Must silently

fade away
158 · Jul 2020
Someplace
AD Letwixt Jul 2020
Take my hand

And we'll create a world within each other

Someplace to hide

To escape the memories that haunt us

Someplace the past cannot find.
156 · Mar 2019
3-27-19
AD Letwixt Mar 2019
all the forgotten things
the things I couldn't see for the longest time
that precise shade of afternoon light

like little petals
dropping slowly down
and landing by my side
154 · Jul 2020
end
AD Letwixt Jul 2020
end
The end is sand
Carried
On wandering winds

To nowhere in particular.
151 · Nov 2019
Untitled
AD Letwixt Nov 2019
words unspoken
speak the loudest
147 · Feb 2020
Untitled
AD Letwixt Feb 2020
i'm one of those narcissistic beasts,
those animals that christened themselves
and created gods to **** the demons in their hearts

what's a god to a god-creator?
147 · Sep 2019
see
AD Letwixt Sep 2019
see
You cannot see from the outside, how many times I've tried to commit suicide. You'd be surprised at how well I can mask my feelings, how easy it is not to cry. You can't see the scar down my forearm through my jacket, nor the note I keep on my desk.

I am not unique.

And that is why I always smile and say nice things to other people. Because of the things I can't see.
147 · Jan 2019
the images
AD Letwixt Jan 2019
the images
flicker in and out of focus;
memory leaves dull and pale
what was, once.
145 · Apr 2020
4-16
AD Letwixt Apr 2020
puffs of snow
on drooping branches
.
.
.
.
.
.
for the last time
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