It's all going to be okay
It's all going to be okay
It's all going to be okay

that's what I keep telling myself

even though I know
no one's here to stop my tears
from trickling down
and drip drip dropping from my chin

It's all going to be okay
It's all going to be okay
It's all going to be okay

cracked and ashen dying tree
cold and broken, our anguished keen
roots unsevered lead the way
to time’s ending, and daylight stay
four undoing must be five
what has withered, can be revived

I'm running.
I have been for a while, I think.

I'm just trying to find a place
Where joy outweighs my suffering

I don't think it's real, though.
Not really.
If It existed, I would already have it

Because it's all in your head, as far as I can tell.
There's no "where" better than "here"
Because here is the only where there is.

****.

It's 3am and I miss you
.
. . . . When your arms held
my fractured being
Stopped me from filing apart. . . .
.
But now you're gone
and I can't sleep.

Take my hand

And we'll create a world within each other

Someplace to hide

To escape the memories that haunt us

Someplace the past cannot find.

I wonder sometimes
how it all could've mattered so much. . . .

but then I think of the feeling-

-I remember what it was like
with my head on your chest,
tracing fingers round and round,
goosebumps on my skin. . . .

I can't even bring myself to say your name,
but

I wish I could feel you again.

The end is sand
Carried
On wandering winds

To nowhere in particular.