In a world full of black and white
She’s the only colour I need

I
Left
You
Because
I
Was
Tired
Of
Being
Your
Poison

I am never good at apologies,
But this one is long over due.

I was bitter when we broke up,
But I shouldn't have taken it out on you.

The circumstances we were stuck in were unfortunate,
And I know that our love took a toll on both of our wellbeing.

There's a lot that I wish I could say to you,
But I know that I severed the connection we had.

I want to say that I do not regret the time we had together,
Perhaps our paths will cross again,

Although I hope that it will happen sooner rather than later,
So I can tell you everything that I never said.

And perhaps by some miracle you will forgive me for the mistakes that I made.

I was so caught up in my own depression that I forgot how much you meant to me.

I am sorry for closing up and shutting you out,
I know that I hurt you.

I never meant to and I know that sounds like an over used line,
But I mean it, I pinky promise.

I just want to say that I am sorry,
From the bottom of my tattered and torn apart heart.

If I could give the remains of my heart I would,
Although I know you deserve more.

You never knew because you never had the time,
And when you let me talk,
You would never listen,
Perhaps it was my fault that I didn't speak louder,
But you should've been there for me

Late night texts
Sleepy eyes
Small smiles
Butterflies

Stolen moments
Held inside
Beating heart
Stupefied

~

Left alone
Tear filled eyes
Chapped lips
Scarred thighs

Empty promises
Cast aside
Broken heart
Terrified

~j.l.

I am not good with words or people.
The thoughts I have seem to never come out the way I want them too.
That’s why I find different ways to communicate.
Yet no one seems to understand,
Well no one except you

I haven’t written in so long,
My hands have forgotten the way the words move.

The last thing I wrote about was a girl who I thought would be mine.

It is no secret that I’m blinded by love.
Every sane thought tends to disappear without a trace.

I try to lie myself by stating that it’s okay that I’ll never find someone like you.

But the truth is, I keep looking for someone like you.

Someone who understands me like you do,
Someone who knows me.

But there will never be another you.
Because you’re the only person who can fill this hole in my chest.

You’re the only one who can stitch all my wounds closed.
The only one that can pick up the pieces of my shattered heart and help me piece it back together.

You’re the only one who isn’t scared of seeing my dark side.
The only one who doesn’t turn away when things get tough.

Darling, the truth is, you’re the one that I want.