It almost seems magical
How easily someone can fall in love with a hobby or a person
And make that the one thing that gets their life seemingly easier
The thing that drives their life; the reason someone wakes up in the morning
What makes them smile before they go to rest their head in the moonlight

And I watched you fall in love with your passion
I watched it not only fill your eyes but your hope and imagination
I watched it fill you up
You drank it in

Until the day it became distructive
You let it consume every part of you; your weekends, your house, your family
You let it sep into places where passion should be replaced with pure love and joy
You let it tear you apart and seperate you from 16 years of a person
You let it build a home and you let it fester
You took a shack and built a mansion
Your mansion became exclusive and you let nothing but your passion inside
You left me out in the cold while your passion kept you warm
And your passion became deadly to the rest of us
It was dangerous, don't you see?

I hope that with this great deal of suffering you find strength
I hope that when you find something you love you chase after it like a scared little girl running away from everything she lost
Into something to love even more

I hope you cry
and I hope those tears turn into waterfalls that will one day turn into a big lake that provides breeding grounds for habitat and humanity

I hope you find a rainbow at the end of your storm
I hope you never find that *** of gold
but I hope you never stop searching

I hope you never stop running on a treadmill that leads you in circles

I hope whenever you are in a big city you always feel lost
And I hope you always know that there's warm between gusts of wind

I hope that city never becomes too predictable
I hope you keep wondering why you left

And most importantly, I hope you never leave what you loved here

Then after you dropped me off I couldn't stop smiling

But please please please write to me from boston
I'll have the same address and I'll feel so much better just please search for something as beautiful as these oak trees there
Sit on the roof and listen to what the skyline tells you to do because I know you'll get ****** into the city life
And when you're feeling alone take a bus to me and remind me why I wanted to change in the first place

Oh my god just please write me in boston

Please don't ever ******* leave me or I'll never know how a liberal thinks or feels or breathes

or how you laugh
and ugh ugh pleaseee

I think she was laughing
And rolling her ocean blue eyes
And smiling
Just to do it all over again

And I think I stepped outside because I was scared
But she just kept laughing

And I couldn't even contain myself
Watching her be so energetic
But

No one knew
No one ever knew

And I just wanted to know

How can you be so sad and alone?

Maybe it's your turn to start apologizing
And my turn to stop

Look right through me
I promise you that all you will see is disappointment

I'm sorry

I don't care what they say

I don't care, I don't care

They will never know your eyes searching for a lost soul inside of me under the moonlight

They will never know the times I was scared and you were too but you held me as I cried

And they will never ever know the little things inside of me I'm dying to tell you as you wake up

I don't care, I don't care