sometimes i wonder
if anyone else
is always tired of others

If you were a diamond perfectly clear
Shining and gleaming like a broken hearts tear            
If love was coal, rugged and black
Why did leave why did you come back

If I had known
i’d leave alone
Coal into diamond diamond to rust
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust

Its crazy how quickly you took over my head
You sewed yourself in, silver needle laced with golden thread
Seasons come and go it all comes to an end
The prettiest flowers are the ones who wind up dead

If I had known
i’d leave alone
Coal into diamond diamond to rust
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust

It's dark but I can see
I listen to everything
something echoes in the emptiness beside me
Where you once stood by my side
So I listen
To the cars and crickets
And the voices that aren't really there
Please forgive me I really tried
Im really tired

And so I was the one who was left behind
But neither of us are to blame
And even if you only left
Because you couldn't stay
That's okay

And now i’m afraid of forgetting you
But you can never forget someone who gave you so much
I guess what they say it's true
You never know what you have until it’s gone
I don't want to let you go
I don't want to move on
I just want to pretend
Your not gone

And so I was the one who was left behind
But neither of us are to blame
And even if you only left
Because you couldn't stay
That's okay

And so I was the one who was left behind
And i know your not to blame
I know that you had to leave
But i needed you to stay
And it's not okay

Sadness is a teardrop
that flows
To a river
It flows

Sadness is the rain
That pours
On a dim afternoon
It pours

Sadness is a long drive
On a particularly long stretch of road
Without trees
Without homes
Without anything
Sadness stretches
Sadness is neverending

Sadness is looking at yourself
In the reflection
Of a window
And not seeing
You
But a shell of you you were
And never will be again

Sadness is never leaving your room
Sadness is letting everyone move on without you
Sadness is disappointing your family everyday
Sadness is nothing
Sadness is my everything

my stomach is in knots
and i feel so sick thinking about you
holding anyone that isn’t me
and i don’t understand why you thought it’d be a good idea
to tell me that you’re falling asleep at night
with someone else in your bed,
even if you’re not kissing them goodnight,
it doesn't make it right

i know that you are playing games
you don't love them
you're seeking attention
but don't you know i could treat you better?

i'd promise to give you my whole heart
but its already in your hands
too bad your also holding someone else's waist

you make my head spin
my knees weaken
and my stomach with butterflies
but im just a friend to you
even though you mean so much more to me

i could give you the whole universe
but then i’d just be giving you yourself
ebony silhouettes painting a supernova
ink bleeding through a canvas of light
fragmented stars gleam in your eye
will you be the ruler of my sky

i could drown in your oceans of  stormy gray
lose myself in your forests so emerald green
you exist on the border between reality and not
gravity hits hard and fast
i could give you the whole universe
but then i’d just be giving you yourself