Do not ask me
Why I have trust issues
Ask everyone who has ever left.

I keep thinking about the last time I saw you
And how your eyes barely wanted to lock in with mine
I keep thinking how I know you felt my eyes all over you
But you didn't even spare a word on me.
I keep thinking how much I wanted to touch you
How much I wanted to taste those lips one more time
And how much I wanted to feel your eyes dance over my body
But they didn't.
Not even a glance.
I keep thinking about the last time I saw you
And I wish I said something.

You've scarred me so much that I can't touch another human being without my fingertips burning with a desire to know what your skin feels like
There isn't a part of me left that wants to know if you've ever stopped midday and thought of the color of my eyes or if your chest ever ached at night like mine did because you weren't there
I don't wanna know if you ever thought of me and if it hurt knowing you can't hold me
I'm on the verge of dying without you And I refuse to let you know that there's still a part of me you control
Because I'm fighting for you to hate me
So I can hate you too, without wanting you with me.
I wonder how long it'll take before I can **** someone and you'll no longer be the only thing on my mind.

I've got an affection, this affliction
It's bringing me down,
But all the while I am bouyed by such an emotion.
It invades my mind, muddles my devotion-
Nearly makes all function impossible

This diseased mind has only one mission: to be with it's affliction- this affection, you see.
The only cure is in vaccination, filled exactly with what infection you bring
As it courses through my system, I can feel the sorrow soothe;
The panging in my heart stops...
Did my heart stop?

Yes,
This condition, no longer contagion
It makes me happy to say,
Is with sensation, fighting cessation...

Still my only ambition is for you, my love, to stay.

And maybe one of these days
I'll follow the ways of my heart
And I hope they'll bring me to you
And you can shows me life the way Only you knew
We can make faces again, laugh, fool Around
Like we did way back when
Things were okay.

I know you leaned your head against mine last night
Cause my head was on your shoulder
And we were high like birds
Freezing on the concrete floor at 5am
But I can't get you out of my thoughts
Cause oh my god you're unreal
And I'm so unbelievably ordinary
It would be a ******* fairytale
If my existence sparked an interest and you wished I was yours
I know you leaned your head against mine last night
But I'm giving this too much thought.
You'll never be more than a daydream.

I know I said I could take it or leave it
Having you in my life
But I just might be missing you and it kind of feels like
A very sharp knife
And I thought of when you kissed me in the car while we were at the traffic lights
And I wish I wasn't spending my nights alone
I'm getting better at getting you out of my head
But the memory of your bed sometimes slips through the cracks
I'm scared of realising that what my life lacks
Is your presence.