You are convinced
You've made your escape
As far away from midnight you can get
Continuing on and on
In the hopes that you can hide from the inevitable
You can't stop time
Avoiding the reality is an insatiable quest
The more you try to escape it
The more you will become lost
Unable to find your way back
To yourself
The darkness will come and it's unavoidable
Stop running and let it happen
The more you fight it
The more people are going to get hurt
You've gotta stop to let yourself heal
Move on
The road you took led you here
Accept that
And quit punishing yourself

The pain behind your eyes
Tells a story that could never lie
That feeling of being lost
But wanting to be found
Intimidated and vulnerable
Tired of being pushed around
Confused and torn
At having a second chance
An opportunity to choose
When it's safer with nothing to lose
Picking up the pieces seems an impossible task
To find someone true
To trust
Not hiding behind a mask
I can see the pain behind your eyes
It isn't hidden very well
Sometimes to get to heaven
You gotta go thru hell

I want to do things right
Leave the past behind
Quit judging people for other's misactions
Quit judging myself
Let myself be happy
Quit wasting time
Be a little more kind
Take charge of my life
Get back in control
Tie things back together that have unraveled
Instead of taking the easy road
Travel the path less traveled
Learn to appreciate what I've got
Take less for granted
And learning to love this life
I've been handed

Things just seem so weird without you, I don't know if I'm still in love with you or the idea of you either way i cant get you out of my head even if i tried and it so hard to explain and talk to anyone about it because i feel like its always gonna be the same response. i will say it took me time to get over you, and now I'm afraid of falling in love again or even saying i love you. I'm so scared that something so precious to me will be taken again and I'm just not ready for it. I wish I could just know the future already without having to go through all the pain.
I just want to know if ill ever be happy again...