I don't know if I still love you
But I hope I don't
It could be gone
my love.
I think I miss it
I miss not watching you
I miss caring where you are going
who you are with
the joy I felt when I thought of what could have been
What could have been if we lived in the world where we are to be together
it rivals the happiness I feel when I realize that I might finally stop hurting
hurting for you
hurting for us
I think I'd like to be done loving you
I think I hope I'm not

Your voice fills my head
Your touch plagues my bed
I need you here
To end this pain
Being without you is making go insane
I hate what we are but I cant change a thing
I long to hear your voice, I was nothing more than a fling



My heart burns for you
Your eyes pierce my soul
And I feel like a fool
For falling into this hole

I don’t know why, it feels so good
I’d break this spell if only I could

I drag your pain across my skin
Wondering why I can never win

The blood that flows comes straight from my heart
We’re so close yet so far apart

I can't stop looking at you
when you pass, I can't turn away
I don't know why
you're just like everyone else
right?
you have hands, and feet
eyes and ears
like anyone else
and yet, you are different
I can't help but study your walk
deliberate. confident. comfortable
each step has a purpose
you always know where you are going.
and when you speak to me
I have to notice the lines on your face
the way your lips create that sharp smile
but why?
why can't I look away.
why must I notice
maybe I'm trying to see why you are different
why you are the key to my happiness
why I can't look away