within numbered days
left til i celebrate christ's birth
i saw the darkness in your eyes

i knew that you were dangerous
how could you do this to me
you destroyed me
you keep me in chains

i cannot escape
a terrible reality
a different hell
set by the one
i'd love to die for.

in the end
only three things
will matter;
how much you loved,
how gently you lived,
and
how gracefully
you let go of things
not meant for you...

my body is cold
the warmth of your hand
releases heat that reaches my skin

so tender
so mild
so gentle

oh sweet sorrow
what have you done
you left me for dead

i reminisce this death
as years gone afar
i have fallen apart.