I've tried so hard to mend the broken pieces.
All I've got is a broken heart and wasted memories .
You need to try.
I'll wait forever and a day if that's what it's going to take.
I've cried for so many nights.
I don't know what I did but I want you back.
I need you now more than anything.

You may never understand it,
But from the very first time I saw you
Before we ever spoke a word
Before we ever met
When you had only smiled at me from a distance,
I knew that from that moment on
I wanted to spend every day
Of the rest of my life
Loving you
Looking after you
Caring for you
And giving my everything
To never lose that smile.

I never thought that I would be loving at a distance
Never thought those blue eyes would be a blur
My heart cracked when you almost kissed him
It Broke every time when you kissed her

I was a fool to believe you could love me
I felt my heart crawl back to safety
I was a fool to stand from a far and see
you wrap you arms around her
And believe it was me.

I was in love with you
But only from a distance
The gap between us grew.
The hole in the sweater that couldn't be mended

There is no blame to be thrown around
No angry words to be directed at any one but me

I was a fool.
A fool who believed that anything was possible
A fool on cloud nine.
A fool from a distant.

It's hard to smile
Sit still and be quiet
When all you want to do
Is throw your phone across
The room
Let it break into a million pieces
And have the person you love
Hold you
And whisper "I'm sorry"

I watched you and HER
Dance
Mess around smiling
Laughing

All I could think of
Was how funny it was
That I can know you so well
And then suddenly
Not know you at all.

He makes me complete
But when he isn't next to me
I feel crazy
Like he needs to be next to me at all times
And if he isn't
I'll lose him

I want to be alone but at the same time I don’t.
I remember this feeling.
Seeing all my friends out and having fun,
wishing I could do that too.
Wishing I could be apart of it.
But my brain just panics and says
"No, you have to stay here."
I need to stay here.
I need to stay alone in my room.
I need to stay alone.

I can't wait for the day that this all gets a bit more bearable.
I want to stay,
and I want to leave.
I want to learn,
but I want to stay home and sleep.
I want to hurt myself,
but I need to stay strong.
I have so much to live for,
I have a purpose,
but I'm still wondering what exactly that is.